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Day 1.

Hello, Diary.

Today is October 27, 2068, Thursday.

On the street +4, windy.

06:32. * Change password 072366 to 062751. *

12:53. I can't see Him at school, again. I hope He's recovering.

13:57. In history class, we simulated a trial. This time, under the «hammer of justice» lay Charles V. The court acquitted the accused.

16:43. Rowley invited me to the movie theater this weekend. She's worried about me.

23:52. That's all for today.

Bye, Diary.

Day 2.

Hello, Diary.

Today is October 29, 2068, Saturday.

It's +3 outside, cloudy.

19:33. Rowley didn't warn about Emet was coming with us.

19: 34. * Let me introduce you to Emet Riga. *

He goes swimming with Rowley and is studying to become a computer programmer at an institution.

I think his height is about 174 cm. Emet keeps track of her appearance, and it's obvious.

In communication, he is quite absent-minded, often changing the topic of conversation, as if trying to talk about everything. However, Emet hardly spoke to me.

* End of Dating. *

19:37. Now I want to share with you my impressions of the film, the plot of which develops on the planet West, where each pair of people has the same birthmark, meaning their spiritual connection. In addition, these people must spend their entire lives searching for their beloved.

Nevertheless, no story is complete without a special main character, who does not have a spot. Why is she humiliated at school, saying: “You don't belong in this world!” which is why she decides to jump off the roof.

Then an incredible coincidence-a meeting of characters.

A person was already standing on the edge of the building. A faint breath of wind, a glint in your eyes, and love at first sight.

Then half of the movie showed the young man's past and explained why he decided to commit suicide. Next – the development of the relationship between the main characters and romance.

Nevertheless, this story can't end so “boring”!

Therefore, the plot introduced another person without a “brand”, and he is looking for his chosen one.

Handsome, rich, smart, intelligent, polite – well, as usual. Finding his true love, he offers her the best of everything: money, a car, a large apartment and the fulfillment of any desires.

They are perfect for each other, they understand each other in half a word, they feel the mood, and they have a spiritual contact.

And whom do you think the girl preferred? A loved one who supported her in difficult moments, or one that was meant for her by nature?

She left with a handsome man for a bright future.

And our Romeo, unable to withstand another betrayal, drowned himself.

The end of this work.

Most of the audience felt sorry for the young man, but he was initially ready to commit suicide. The hero simply postponed the inevitable and gave him happy moments, reviving his faith in the best. The truth destroyed these hopes in the future by its selfishness.

Why feel sorry for Romeo, if he made such a choice, chose his own fate?

To prevent this from happening in reality, people have created systems that decide people's future. This allows you to reduce random mistakes and waste time on empty relationships with people. I protect the stability and security of a society that will disintegrate into small pieces without control.

20:13. After the movie, Emet decided to walk Rowley home, and I went to the Park, again.

Bye, Diary.

Day 3.

Hello, Diary.

Today is Monday, October 31, 2068.

On the street +5 in the afternoon.

07:12. Rowley just told me that Emet told her he loved her after I left. Now they're dating. I'm glad.

10:54. He came. As always, there are many people around Him. Everyone was worried about Him and is asking about everything.

However, why does no one notice that it is difficult for them to talk?

He was released from the hospital only yesterday!

16:07. * Update Rowley's status. *

We met at the age of eight, were neighbors, and went to school together.

Curly, thick blond hair, dark eyes, and freckles. She's a pretty girl, or she wants to be.

Rowley is a caring, sociable, emotional, skittish, funny and frivolous girl.

* Add: *

– Responsible, stubborn, strict, demanding and selfish – if you get to know her better. —

Likes novels, manga, and monochrome combination of things, rock, and dawns.

* Add: *

– Hobbies: swimming, photography. —

Not likes: expectations, clothing from flax, and lack of attention.

* Add: *

– Hates: lies, deception, white chocolate. —

Fears: heights, all animals (except dogs and cats), loneliness, painful death.

A friend adapts to others, so sometimes it is difficult to understand what she really likes and what is not.

She always calls me to new cafes, festivals, or movie premieres. I don't think I'd leave the house if I didn't know you.

* Add: *

– She often changes her social circle and never stays in the same company for more than a month. She says she's getting bored. But I think everyone just gets bored with the perfect Rowley. —

* End of status update. *

17:26. I don't remember coming here, but I'm back in the Park.

I keep thinking about our first meeting with Him.

23:03. That's all for today. My head ached.

Bye, Diary.

Day 4.

Hello, Diary.

Today is November 2, 2068, Wednesday.

On the street +2, clear.

09:52. He doesn't miss classes. I think it's not easy for Him to catch up with the curriculum. I hope the teachers understand this.

15:34. I need to prepare a present for Mary. She turns 7 years old. How fast my beloved niece is growing!

I'll buy her a big stuffed penguin and a radio-controlled car. I'm sure she'll be happy with this gift.

18:57. It's time to do a psychology project.

Bye, Diary.

Day 5.

Hello, Diary.

Today is November 3, 2068, Thursday.

On the street +4, cloudy.

11:55. The mandatory professional aptitude test will take place next week. I need to do additional tasks in genetics and quantum physics if I want to be on the same level as Him.

16:29. He goes to a tutor on the harmony of color and sound, this is one of the subjects that I study in depth.

Can I send him my notes?

18:54. Rowley will be preparing for the test with Emet.

I hope she can learn the theory of aerodynamics; otherwise, she'll end up in another class again.

19:31. It's time to prepare your lessons.

Bye, Diary.

Day 6.

Hello, Diary.

Today is November 5, 2068, Saturday.

It's +5 outside, cloudy.

12:03. Yesterday, my sister gave a great party for Mary.

It all started in a cafe. There were invited friends of the niece and animators who conducted competitions and quizzes. I am glad that she will have good memories of this holiday, because last year's event left only longing.

After the morning celebration, we went to the identification Department. Mary chose her father's last name, and then she was implanted with an identity chip.

Then the party continued in the sister's new home.

Mary was inundated with gifts. My aunt and uncle gave her a big doll in a puffy dress, my grandmother a red sundress with ruffles, and my parents gave her dog toys and a collar. I was as surprised as Mary, who had never owned a dog.

But when Nora returned to the room with her gift, everything fell into place.

Our dream came true about a cloud, big, fluffy, and warm, with beautiful black eyes and a cute face.

We spent the rest of the day walking with Mary and Becky (I suggested the nickname). We were having fun.

15:45. We returned home. I want to clean up the gallery and print out a couple of photos for the album.

Photo albums are very rare nowadays. I like to look at them when I get bored. Maybe in the future these albums will be the only reminder of me.

16: 22. Rowley rarely calls me lately, which is not surprising.

I hope she's having a good time with Emet.

20:48. Genetics has been studied, but there are still problems in quantum physics.

I hope it also passed the harmony of color and sound.

01:32. That's all for today, I'm tired.

Bye, Diary.

Day 7.

Hello, Diary.

Today is Tuesday, November 8, 2068.

On the street +3, windy.

08:53. Tomorrow will be MPAT (mandatory professional aptitude test).

10:52. He looks calm, but I know that this person is actually very worried about the test and prepares for it at night.

I hope it doesn't make Him ill again.

11:57. Rowley seems very happy, and in rare moments of our communication only talks about Emet.

14:59. *Update the status of Emet. *

He goes swimming with Rowley, and is studying to become a computer programmer at an institution.

*Complement: *

– Likes: horror movies, motorcycles and cars, rock, black, sweets (especially white chocolate.

Doesn't like: queues, quests, furies, classical music, and traditions).

Fears: getting lost in an unfamiliar place, being left without a phone, losing memory, amputations. —

His height is 178 cm, weight 63 kg; he watches his figure, because he believes that girls like his appearance.

Emet is rather inattentive and absent-minded. He can't concentrate on one topic and never finishes his thought. Because of this, he has problems with language logic and speech culture. —

* End of status update. *

20:18. I went to the store for coffee and stayed in the Park, again. I can't leave until I see the lights go out in His room.

02:27. That's it for today, wish me luck on the MPAT.

Bye, Diary.

Day 8.

Hello, Diary.

Today is Wednesday, November 9, 2068.

It's +1 outside, cloudy.

09:38. I was very tired, but my efforts were not in vain. The quantum physics problems were exactly the ones I was preparing for. And on genetics were quite easy questions. I want to go up a step to be closer to Him. But he was nowhere to be seen today. I hope He's all right.

11:27. Rowley left immediately after testing. We usually celebrated together in a cafe after the MPAT.

15:56. Tomorrow I will have a medical check-up all day, after which I will not see Him for 180 hours. I'll go to the Park.

19:42. Rowley doesn't return my calls.

22:53. He didn't come home.

23:01. My head starts to spin. I need to tell the neurologist tomorrow, or I'll have more dreams.

Bye, Diary.

Day 9.

Hello, Diary.

Today is November 12, 2068, Saturday.

On the street +2, Sunny.

10:41. Mary often sends photos with Becky.

Nora says they even sleep in the same bed, which is very nice. Also, the niece goes together with her pet to classes with a dog handler. Now this plush cloud learns to protect its owner.

15:44. He's going to spend the week off with his relatives. It will be good for His health, but I already miss it.

16:53. A few words about the last medical examination.

My body is stable.

The neurologist recommended that you sign up for swimming, and the psychotherapist recommended that you spend more time with your peers.

17:13. We'll go to grandma's tonight. She said I'd have a surprise waiting for me.

18:54. Rowley still doesn't answer me.

23:49. That's all for today, it's time to get ready.

Bye, Diary.

Day 10.

Hello, Diary.

The weather is beautiful today, and I'm in a great mood.

18:26. My grandmother's surprise is a collection of quotes recorded half a century ago, which she found while cleaning the attic. The paper in the notebook is rather shabby, but the notes can still be read.

I remember the following passages. I need to ask the library for the books from which they were written.

1) “I can't talk to the walls: they're yelling at me. I can't talk to my wife: she only listens to the walls. I want someone to listen to me. And if I talk for a long time, then maybe I'll agree to something reasonable" Fahrenheit 451.

I liked this excerpt because it reflects the desire to be heard. The hero is hungry for understanding; he is alone, because even his beloved does not understand him. But he will not give up, even if he is not sure that he will achieve the desired result.

2) “And if all people thought more, they would be convinced that life is not worth taking care of so much…” Hero of our time.

A happy person will not think about life, he will enjoy it. And the person who is faced with difficulties will begin to think that being is not worthy of any effort or effort.

3) “Children are the only bold philosophers. And bold philosophers are necessarily children” We.

The people do not set themselves a framework and think about absurd and unreal things. They do not try to give their thoughts a certain meaning, but simply enjoy the flight of their imagination, which is often not enough for adults.

20:12. Rowley, why aren't you answering my calls?

22:51. That's it, we're going on a bike ride tomorrow. I should be out in the fresh air more often.

Bye, Diary.

Day 11.

Hello, Diary.

Today is Monday, November 14, 2068.

On the street +1, cloudy.

06: 21. The psychologist treating asked me to record my dreams.

This time I lived for 10 days, but all the time I just stood at the window and watched the surrounding people.

Every day, kids went to school or kindergarten, middle-aged people went to professional training institutions, and adults went to work.

A few hours later, schoolchildren came running. Some earlier, some later. The younger children were playing in the yard. Occasionally I saw people reading books in the square.

After lunch, elderly people went for a walk.

Then students from the EOPQ (the establishment of professional qualifications) stomped back, some of them in pairs, others in large groups. There were also “singles” that were most interesting to watch.

In the evening, the workers returned, tired but happy, because they can spend the rest of the day as they please. Most of them went to entertainment centers, others spent these minutes in virtual reality, and others paid attention to self-development.

I've always thought that the most interesting things happen most often when everyone is asleep. But in these 9 nights, I didn't find anything special.

Those loners sometimes walked to the convenience, but spending a lot of time if we bypassed all shops in search of the best price, and did not find such, come with empty hands or a packet of cigarettes. Occasionally there were noisy companies and the sound of roaring engines.

But in the dark, I usually looked at the life that was in the neighboring buildings. There I noticed workaholics, creative martyrs, responsible students, philosophers, and many others.

Everything was the same every day, except for the weather.

During that period spent in sleep, I liked one girl. She worked from home, probably as a web designer or Illustrator. She lived in the house opposite the mine, slept until lunch, and then went for a walk. A few hours later, I would come back and draw something on a graphic tablet in the square, and when the sun went down, I would pack my things and go home. She didn't sleep at night.

One day, at a late hour, inspiration came to her, and she painted the balcony window of her apartment. It was fun to follow her actions. At first, she could stare at one stroke for an hour, and then abruptly draw half the picture. What had she been thinking?

It took 216 hours, but I remember the last 24 best.

The weather was overcast. It was raining. Everyone carried umbrellas. Some used gray, others red, but most used black. And she went outside with a transparent one.

When students came from the EOPQ, a rainbow appeared in the sky. I wish I was the only one who saw her.

In the evening of this day, children did not play on the Playground and noisy companies did not wander around the courtyards.

She was coming back, but this time not, a man was approaching her.

A second later, he was standing behind her.

The knife came out. Drops of blood and rain. A look directed at me.

His look!

End of the dream.

07:04. My mother woke me up and said something, but I only heard the rain and saw It.

07:17. It's worse than I thought. I've never had a murder dream before. What has changed now?

07: 23. Why is he a murderer? Why His eyes? What does it mean?

07:31. I think this time I was just overexcited about the test.

Bye, Diary.

Day 12.

Hello, Diary.

Today is Thursday, November 17, 2068.

On the street +1, clear.

10:12. After returning home, we immediately went to the hospital.

The doctor said that I had an exacerbation due to overwork, so I was again prescribed a course of stabilizers. We also discussed my dream, and the doctor said: “All from exhaustion.”

Then we went to the store, and my mother bought me a graphic tablet-a gift for the efforts made to MPAT, now I will draw even more often.

16:57. I called Rowley's parents and found out that she had gone with Emet to his parents' house during the free week and had lost her phone there, so she didn't return my calls.

But my dear friend could have called Emet and told me not to worry!

18:49. I hope He's having a good time with his relatives, who live near the mountains.

20:53. It's time to take your medicine and go to bed.

Bye, Diary.

Day 13.

Hello, Diary.

Today is Friday, November 18, 2068.

On the street +1, is uncertain.

07:37. The results of MPAT are already ready.

07:38. * Update the results of the mandatory professional aptitude test. *

First year of study.

Test results for required subjects:

Social behavior culture – 63 points, drawing reading skills-75 points, Zoology-56 points, sound transmission of thoughts-82 points, and artistic visualization of signs-74 points.

For additional subjects:

Technique for collecting information – 61 points, reading mental tables-67 points.

The result of the medical examination is C.

Result: transferred to the second stage in the class of artistic image of technology.

Second year of study.

Test results for required subjects:

Communication culture – 76 points, rational constant-64 points, cellular structure of plants-60 points, visualization of thoughts-85 points, sign system-74 points.

For additional subjects:

Technique for collecting information – 65 points, reading mental tables-69 points.

The result of the medical examination is C.

The result: remained on the second stage, transferred to the class of artistic image of a person.

Third year of study.

…

The result of the medical examination is B.

Result: transferred to the third stage, remained in the class of artistic image of a person.

Fourth year of study.

…

The result of the medical examination is B.

The result: remained on the third stage, transferred to the class of the artistic image of the sign.

Fifth year of study.

…

The result of the medical examination is B.

Result: transferred to the fourth stage, the class of the artistic image of the sign.

Sixth year of study.

…

The result of the medical examination is B.

Result: transferred to the fifth stage, remained in the class of the artistic image of a person.

Seventh year of study.

…

The result of the medical examination is C.

Result: transferred to the sixth stage, remained in the class of the artistic image of the sign.

Eighth year of study.

…

The result of the medical examination is B.

The result: I remained at the sixth stage in the class of the artistic image of a person.

* Add: *

– Ninth year of study.

The result of the medical examination is C.

Test results for required subjects:

Psychology – 78 points, mechanical programming-73 points, genetics – 77 points, the theory of correct lines-85 points, the semantic part of symbols-79 points.

For additional subjects:

Visual illusion – 83 points, reading the emotional state-81 points.

Result: transferred to the seventh stage in the class of the artistic image of the sign. —

* End of updating test results. *

07:41. I am very happy, now we are on the same level, and we will go to General lessons on the theory of correct lines, visualization of thoughts and sound influence.

Today is the happiest day.

07:41. * Change password 062751 to 111868. *

10:54. Rowley talked to me until her new phone went dead.

She talked about her adventures. How she dropped her phone in the giraffe's cage while trying to take a picture of it, how Emet tried to get it and fell into the enclosure himself, how his parents reacted when they met their dirty son with a stranger.

After that, I told her about my dream and a collection of quotes, and we agreed to meet and celebrate my transition to stage seven. At last, my dear Rowley is back.

17:17. I tried out a gift from my mother in practice and drew a view from the window. The sunset today was especially beautiful, bright scarlet.

20:58. Time for bed. You need to follow the regime recommended by the doctor.

Bye, Diary.

Day 14.

Hello, Diary.

Today is November 19, 2068, Saturday.

It's -2 outside, cloudy.

16:36. I met Rowley at “our” cafe, and she brought me a present. She said to open the house, but more about it later.

We strolled, stopping at bakeries and office stores along the way. I missed wandering around and talking about the world seal conspiracy. I was afraid Rowley would change because of Emet, but she's still the funny, stubborn, hysterical person I know.

Now about the gift, as usual, perfectly packed. There were many nice things in the box: bookmarks, pens, notebooks, an album and pencils, and a sweater and socks. And the best part is two tickets to the Yogen concert!

17:49. But my friend doesn't like this group. Then whom should I go with?

18: 33. I'll start studying with Him tomorrow. I can't wait for morning. I'll go to the Park, because He was supposed to be home today, and I'll also paint the benches and trees.

20:31. Time to get your coat.

21:45. Bedtime. The sooner I fall asleep, the sooner the morning will come.

Bye, Diary.

Day 15.

Hello, Diary.

Today is Wednesday, November 23, 2068.

On the street +1, Sunny.

08:52. It's so close. I cannot concentrate on the lecture when He's around. I only listen to his breathing.

Why do lessons end so quickly?

16:17. Rowley replied that she had bought two specifically so that I could get to know someone better.

18:53. I offered to go to the concert with my parents, but they said it would be better if I had fun with my peers. In addition, the offer responded, and sister Nora. Who should I go with now? I don't know anyone.

He also likes this group. Can I give the ticket to Him?

19:01. I'll decide tomorrow, but it's still a weekend performance. And I still need to finish a project on visualizing thoughts.

20:54. Four more days, and the course of stabilizers will end.

Bye, Diary.

Day 16.

Hello, Diary.

Today is Thursday, November 24, 2068.

On the street +3, Sunny.

14:06. After showing a presentation of my project, I suggested that my classmates go to a concert. After school, a couple of people came up to me, they said they were going to this performance, and they would be happy to have my company. They also want to report my extra ticket to a friend from the technical class who didn't have time to buy it, which solves the problem.

One less problem, but I didn't have time to tell Him. Now I will meet new people, they are kind of funny people. They will definitely not be boring.

16: 23. Recently called Mary, told, what Becky smart and quickly remembers all the commands, so next month, they will participate in the dog competition.

18:12. Rowley writes to me every day. Now we don't see each other at school, because it was transferred to the class of the iconic image of a person. But this building is closer to the EOPQ, where Emet is studying, and she is very happy about it.

19:32. I do not part with the graphics tablet. I want to know all his abilities.

20:48. My parents' wedding anniversary is coming up. I think we should surprise them, draw a picture of our family, and then put it in the medallions. We'll always be there for you.

20:51. I haven't been going to the Park lately. In the evenings, I get very dizzy. The good news is that I don't have any dreams, which means that everything is still normal.

Bye, Diary.

Day 17.

Hello, Diary.

Today is November 26, 2068, Saturday.

On the street +1, clear.

10:11. Yesterday, the people and I went to the entertainment center and played all the slot machines there. We also had a virtual battle with students from the class of artistic image of technology.

Before the start, we divided into pairs to cover each other, and assigned duty officers near the base, as if this is not a game, but a real battle.

When comrades were taken hostage and we released them. It was a lot of fun.

12:56. Yuna called me and told me that at 17:35 we were going to a cafe and going to a concert. Last time we did not have a person with us who they promised to offer a free ticket, but they said that he would definitely come today.

15:37. Rowley is riding motorcycles with Emet this weekend.

His parents gave him a ticket for driving lessons, and on his birthday, they will buy him a bike.

I think they'll go on a tour all over the mainland after that.

16:43. I'm ready for fun. Wish me luck.

17:31. He’s here!

Day 18.

Hello, Diary.

Today is Sunday, November 27, 2068.

It's -3 outside, cloudy.

03: 36. * Change password 111868 to 112668. *

06: 39. We were at a concert together, I don't believe it. Was I dreaming?

We talked and danced to the songs of our favorite band. We were so close to each other.

After the performance, the people began to disperse, and He asked where I live and decided to spend it.

On the way, we talked about the theory of the probability of a meteorite falling on our city, about infinity. He even suggested that our world is just an invention!

I wish my home was on the other side of the universe.

Now, thinking about It, I can't sleep, and in 4 hours I have to go to school.

07:53. He shook hands with me.

12:58. My classmates invited me to lunch. He was with them, so I agreed.

16:10. Rowley said that tomorrow the photo club needed a model to practice portraiture, and she suggested my candidacy.

17:52. Lessons are done, I'll walk to the Park.

20:43. We met him.

He was returning from training when I was making sketches of another Bush with birds. He liked my drawings very much and asked to see my portfolio. It's a good thing I transferred all his portraits to another storage device before I left. After that, He saw me off again.

This can't be real! I've been watching him for 28 months, but why is he paying attention to me now?

21:32. I have a terrible headache. Mom called an ambulance. I don't want to go back to the hospital, because We've only just started building a normal relationship.

Day 19.

Hello, Diary.

Today is November 29, 2068, Tuesday.

On the street -5, deg.

06:36. After arriving at the hospital, I was prescribed a full body scan and put on an IV, then I fell asleep, and my mother went home.

I was just woken up for Breakfast.

08:42. I had an additional scan of the brain and spinal cord, and checked the sensitivity of neurons and the speed of transmission of nerve impulses.

No abnormalities were detected based on the scan results. The sensitivity of the neurons is slightly increased, as is the rate of transmission of impulses, so I was prescribed light sedatives.

15:36. A psychologist came and I had to tell him everything about Him. As a result, the doctor assigned me tests of hormone levels and concentration of neurotransmitters.

16:57. Rowley called, wanted to go to a photo club together, but when she found out that I was in the clinic, she immediately changed her plans and is going to visit me.

I asked her to stop by my house and bring me a graphics tablet.

19:31. Again, she didn't say that she was bringing Emet with her.

We took a walk around the hospital grounds, and they said that in honor of the month of relationships, they did a compatibility test, the result of which is 94%. The system offered to marry them, but they refused.

I couldn't believe it for a long time. I thought they were just joking and trying to cheer me up, but Rowley showed me the test report with the stamp of authenticity.

After that, I felt sick. I don't remember if I went to the ward or if they brought me in, but I woke up in my own bed.

19:52. Yuna called to find out the reason for my absence from school, and I told her everything. She promised to visit me tomorrow, and she won't be alone.

I wonder if He'll come. I think not. He has a competition on Friday, and he can't miss practice because of me.

21:49. I finished the portrait of Mary, Nora, and Becky. I wish John were with them anymore.

01:04. For 3 hours I have been looking at portraits with Him, rereading my diary and remembering our conversation on the way from the concert, so many pleasant memories from one walk.

03:52. Now my tablet has been taken away and I can't look at it. I need to sleep.

Bye, Diary.

Day 20.

Hello, Diary.

Today is November 30, 2068, Wednesday.

On the street -3, Sunny.

12:42. They returned the tablet to me, but they threatened to give it to my mother next time.

13:02. We made tests of the hormonal level and concentration of neurotransmitters. The results confirmed that I had a high level of adrenaline and a low amount of dopamine.

I was prescribed stabilizers again.

14:37. My mother came in and brought my things, she didn't sleep last night and tried to hide it with makeup. Worry about me.

15:01. Yuna called, she and a couple of classmates is going to visit me and will be there by 16: 00.

18: 39. I was not allowed to go out and walk with the people, so we sat in the reception area, they brought many Goodies for me.

The school, during my absence, managed to recruit students to the Council, select a Chapter and hold a disco in honor of this. And tomorrow our class will go on an excursion to Dei lacrimas, the name of which means God's tears. Yuna promised to show the waterfall on a video call.

I wanted to draw Dei lacrimas from life, but it probably won't happen this year.

20:43. He came to me after training and gave me forget-me-nots. I only mentioned it once, but He remembered.

We talked to Him until the time was up, and then continued the conversation through the window of my room. It was getting cold outside, so I told Him to go home, or we'd be in the hospital together.

21:33. * Change password 112668 to 113068. *

22:52. I can't sleep. You need to ask the nurse for sleeping pills.

23:05. They did not want to give me a sedative, they said that they did not have the right to provide medicines without the testimony of the attending doctor, so I had to disturb the psychologist.

Now the medicine is already starting to work.

Bye, Diary.

Day 21.

Hello, Diary.

Today is December 2, 2068, Friday.

On the street -6, snow.

06:32. Yesterday, He came to me after a competition where he took first place in the steeplechase and second in the long jump.

This time, He was able to persuade the nurse to let me go outside, and I took the opportunity to take my tablet with me.

We were walking in the square near the hospital. Then I was tired and sat down on a bench, and He asked me to draw a picture of him. He really liked the result, although there were better works than this one, and then gave us the address of his blog so that we could correspond.

Then our walk continued until the time ran out.

I am happy that He is worried about me and often visits me.

11:31. I'll be released on the sixth, and I'll let Him and my mother know.

12:48. Rowley calls every 3 hours and asks about my health, brings me sweets every day. They're all I eat here.

She was very scared when I passed out during the walk, so she doesn't mention the compatibility test or Emet anymore.

14:52. Yuna showed me the waterfall. It is incredibly beautiful, especially the rainbow next to it. I wish I could have gone with my classmates.

The people are worried about me and wished me a speedy recovery.

15:01. I took a picture of our family for medallions in honor of the anniversary. On December 15, parents will take the test again.

16: 29. My dad came to pick me up and took me for a couple of hours. We stopped at my favorite cafe and bought doughnuts. I finally got out of the hospital walls.

17:36. Nora said she and Mary would visit me tomorrow. We hadn't seen each other since my birthday, so I missed them.

19:47. He came to me again and brought me another bouquet. We didn't go for a walk, but we still chatted until the end of reception time.

I hope He doesn't have any problems with his lessons because of me.

22:42. I need to go to sleep soon, so that the new day will come earlier, and I will see my niece.

Bye, Diary.

Day 22.

Hello, Diary.

Today is December 3, 2068, Saturday.

On the street -5, clear.

10:24. I am glad that He comes to me every day, brings me his favorite sweets, and in his spare time writes to me on the blog. I don't want it to stop.

13: 42. Mary and Nora will arrive after 15: 00 and take me home.

14:27. I told Rowley I wouldn't be in the hospital. She sounded sad during the call, but when I asked her why, she said it was all right.

15:33. My niece really liked the portrait I drew, and my sister promised to print it out and hang it at home.

15:42. We stopped at a pizza place.

16: 48. Becky has grown up, now she really looks like a cloud. Mary showed them all the commands they had learned in class.

I think they will be able to win a prize in the competition.

21:32. After a snack, we went to the national Park. During this period, there are many fawns, and I have long wanted to draw them, but they did not want to let us go there with Becky, until Nora provided a veterinary passport confirming the dog's lack of ability to aggression.

In the Park we did not have to look for deer for a long time, they did not hide at all. There were a lot of them, and I was able to make good sketches. We also saw an owl and Mary was even able to photograph a Fox! We had a good day. Especially when they were running after Becky trying to catch a squirrel.

She should tell him and Rowley about it, maybe it would cheer her up.

21:56. The nurse gave me a packet of my favorite cookies when I arrived at the hospital and said: “Your friend was looking for you and asked me to tell you as soon as you got back.”

I apologized to Him on my blog for not telling him I was leaving, and He wrote that he was used to walking to the hospital in the evening. Then I told Him the story from the Park. I hope He wasn't too upset when he didn't find me in the room.

22:52. It's time to go to bed, otherwise the tablet will be taken away again.

Bye, Diary.

Day 23.

Hello, Diary.

Today is Monday, December 5, 2068.

On the street -7, clear.

12:21. I feel much better, I think it's because of Him, because now I can be with him.

19:11. He came in at 18: 14 when Rowley was visiting me, and I had to introduce them. Then she left, leaving us alone.

I don't think Rowley will be satisfied tomorrow until I tell her everything I know about him.

We were walking in the square. It was getting colder in the evening, and I was only wearing my autumn coat, so we went back to the waiting room. I didn't want to leave, but He promised to wait for me and gave me my favorite doughnuts for dessert. But how did He know I liked them? Maybe He was watching me, too.

23:23. After the end of the reception time, we talked for a long time through the window.

He told me that he had a pet, but my father was allergic, and now they are looking for a new home for the cat, and then showed me photos of the kitten, which was just a baby with black fur, green eyes and a pink nose.

I will ask my parents if we can have a cat, if my mother is against it, then I will talk to the doctor, and he will convince her of the benefits of the pet.

He left just 10 minutes ago, and I'm already bored.

23:46. I made a couple of sketches of His kitten, by the way, her name is Yoru. He said it meant night.

23:53. Time for bed. I'll be released tomorrow, and I'll be able to study with Him again.

Bye, Diary.

Day 24.

Hello, Diary.

Today is December 6, 2068, Tuesday.

On the street -3, Sunny.

13:31. In the hospital, I had a good rest, heard many funny stories, played all the Board games that were in our Department, saw old friends and met new ones. Be fun. I hope I never come back here again.

14: 20. Home, sweet home, how I missed my native walls.

17:48. I talked to my parents about a kitten, and they agreed to have one.

It turned out that my doctor had already sent a letter of recommendation to the pet protection system, and we received permission to own a pet a year ago.

But they used to say to me, “Norma, you won't pay enough attention to the animal” and they refused, and now it seems that they are ready to fulfill any of my wishes.

18:19. I wrote to Him that I could take Yoru to my home; And He was very happy about it and gave his mother the number. They discussed all the details of moving the Yoru to us. And He asked me to meet him in the Park and take a little walk.

23:33. Why does time fly so fast when I spend it with Him? I want this hour to last forever.

We walked across the bridge and looked at the city lights. Then He suggested that we go up to the balcony on the 105th floor, where we had a great view.

We looked at the Windows and tried to make figures out of the lighted ones, as they usually do with clouds or stars. Then we went to the store and bought coffee, thinking about the possibility of immortality, sometimes joking and laughing for a long time, and then silent, lost in their own thoughts.

It was the best night of my life.

23:38. *To change the password 113068 on 120668. *

01:21. The mode went wrong again. Time for bed.

Bye, Diary.

Day 25.

Hello, Diary.

Today is Thursday, December 8, 2068.

It's -4 outside, cloudy.

14:27. I am free from school for the rest of the week, so I spend my days drawing and creating graphic projects to keep up with the school curriculum.

Classmates yesterday returned from a tour, Yuna sent many photos of caves, mountains and rock paintings. She goes to a photo club, just like Rowley, who goes to a professional group because she wants to be a photographer, and a classmate goes to an Amateur group.

15:42. * Diary, it's high time I introduced you to Yuna Temiko. *

We met at the fourth stage in the class of the artistic image of the sign, when we were given a pair of project on symbolic transmission of thought, in which it was necessary to depict each other's thoughts. So we became friends, began to have lunch together and spend big breaks talking about beautiful things.

My friend is a shy, modest, caring, naive and indecisive girl.

She attracts people with her calm and quiet nature and is always ready to help and support her friends. Like Hestia, Yuna protects her loved ones.

Dark shoulder-length hair, brown eyes, average height and weight – her appearance is unremarkable.

* End of Dating. *

16:46. I went to the jewelry stores and found the right medallions for my parents, so I need to talk to Nora and buy them. I also went to the print shop and printed out photos of the best evening walk for the album.

18:34. Mary and Becky have a competition tomorrow. I know that she is very worried and worried, so I called her. Mary said that she would definitely wear a pendant that brings good luck and was given by her father on his 6th birthday.

23:52. We corresponded with Him again late into the night and discussed the future.

After his admission to the criminal procedure code for an athlete, we will see each other less often, but no one has canceled the correspondence in the blog, and on weekends, we will be able to go out together or with the people to entertainment centers, festivals or concerts.

01:19. Rowley called 17 times and my phone was turned off. I'll call her back later.

Bye, Diary.

Day 26.

Hello, Diary.

Today is Friday, December 9, 2068.

On the street -5 Sunny.

07:37. Mary's competition starts at 10: 30.

10: 27. My niece is very worried and this is transmitted to Becky, but I was able to calm them down.

This tournament is held in 3 stages:

1) Checking the owner's basic training skills.

Also, at this stage, they conduct a simulation of aggressive behavior of the dog in virtual reality, where I take into account the speed of reaction and decision-making of its owner.

According to the rules, at the first signs of rabies, the owner must introduce a tranquilizer to his pet, and then take it to a veterinary clinic.

2) Check the dog's abilities, its orientation skills and search for hidden objects by smell. In this part of the tournament, the pet must save the owner, who is in danger.

3) Check the interaction between the dog and its owner, perform various tricks and pass the obstacle course.

The final test is to protect the owner from attack, where the dog must immobilize the attacker while its owner reports the incident to the security services.

I'm worried about Mary, because it's probably going to be difficult for her to give Becky a sleeping pill, even if it's in virtual reality.

11:06. The first stage is complete! We were able to observe Mary's actions during the virtual test, and she managed it in 49.345 seconds. I still can't believe it. My pretty niece has no doubt put Becky to sleep, and she's become a responsible host. I'm proud of her.

We'll find out in a couple of minutes if Becky will participate in the second stage, otherwise we'll go eat our favorite pancakes.

11:12. They go through to the second stage!

Now it's cloud's turn to show what she can do for her mistress.

Her niece is worried about her, just like the rest of us.

11: 28. Cloud has passed the maze! Now she needs to find Mary's hidden purse.

11:33. She's done it! Now remains the most difficult test.

11:35. They were tested by fire. Becky must go into the burning room, find the hidden Mary, and bring her out.

11:48. As soon as our cloud heard Mary's call, it threw itself into the fire. The other dogs who were doing this task got scared and didn't go into the burning room at all, but Becky did it! She pulled the man out of the fire.

The final stage remains.

12: 14. Mary and Becky are next on the carpet, wearing identical costumes.

12:33. They had a colorful performance, rich in different tricks, they inserted a small fragment of the dance, which amazed the audience.

12:38. They passed the obstacle course! The attack remains.

12:46. I was very scared when Becky jumped on the “thief” and knocked him to the ground. I thought that she started uncontrollable aggression, but she let go of the “fraudster” and just wouldn't let him get up, scaring him by barking. During this time, Mary managed to make a call.

It's only been 36 days, and they understand each other as if they've been together all their lives. The award ceremony starts at 15: 00, so we go to the cafe for a snack.

15:16. They received a diploma of the third degree! I'm so happy. Today we should definitely hold a holiday in honor of this. With such achievements, she will definitely be able to become a dog handler in the future. We need to tell Him about it.

16:17. Mary wanted to visit her father to tell him about the tournament and introduce him to Becky, so we went to rebirth grove.

17:28. We stopped next to a maple tree. He's grown a lot since the last time I saw him. At first, I even doubted whether we came to the same tree, but the sign with the inscription: “John Lanford 2041-2067”, – has dispelled all doubts.

Nora said Hello to him and left; her sister would never accept his death. I miss John, too.

He often drove me around in his car and sometimes picked me up from school. Once the three of us (me, John and Nora) went to the sea, I was 8 years old at the time. I think that summer was the best of my life.

Mary told him a lot about Becky and how nice she was, and then she said, “Dad, It would be so nice to walk around that lake with the swans together,” and she started crying, the dog ran around trying to calm her down.

18:32. We drove home in silence, and I remembered a quote from the collection.

“Death is not the opposite of life, but part of it” Norwegian forest.

What did the main character of this work face that he had to learn such a cruel truth?

19: 03. After returning home, no one spoke about John, as if they had forgotten about him again or did not know him at all.

19:42. I decided to take a walk with Becky and the host, told her about Yoru and showed her photos of the waterfall, mountains, and more.

I wanted to cheer up the birthday girl, because she is the main character of the day, but no one listened to me.

22:13. I decided to talk to Nora tomorrow and find out what happened a year ago.

22:21. * Diary, I didn't tell you about John Lanford, I need to fix this. *

I met him when I was 6 years old. Nora sat with me that day and called John to relieve the boredom, and the three of us walked all day. At that time, he was studying at the sixth stage with his sister. They were in the same class.

Brown hair, gray eyes, and a perpetual smile on his face are all I remember about his appearance.

John always made me laugh with his jokes. He didn't seem to know what sadness was or what it was eaten with. My parents trusted him, so I often stayed with him when they went on business trips. In those days, we played Board games and held various competitions, such as who would eat lunch faster, put away toys, do homework, draw a picture of Nora, or go to sleep. He treated me like his little sister.

He loved rainbows, stars, clouds, cotton candy, chaos theory, and classical music.

John was a dreamer and believed that anything was possible if you put enough effort into it.

I didn't like: noise, coffee, frames and tables.

His favorite saying was: “Rules are necessary in order to break them!”

My brother collected DVDs of movies, and we often watched them at his house, because there was no player at home.

After graduation, my sister and John took a compatibility test, which was 96%. They asked their parents for permission to marry, and they all agreed.

So John became my real brother.

Then they had baby Mary. We all loved her. John qualified as a philosopher and started working, after which they bought an apartment.

Nora was very happy, and the cutie gradually grew up, receiving all the attention from loving parents.

So a year passed, then a second, then a third.

In the summer, they went with their family to the ocean; Nora called every day and sent us a sea of photos.

Then the 4th year of their life together flew by, and the 5th came, after which John suddenly moved.

The last time I saw him was on November 4, 2067, when he carried his daughter in his arms all day and only let her go when the baby fell asleep.

And 3 days after that, it became known that he killed himself.

* End of Dating. *

Now, remembering the pleasant moments spent with my brother, I felt sad, I need to calm down and go to bed.

Bye, Diary.

Day 27.

Hello, Diary.

Today is December 10, 2068, Saturday.

On the street -9, snow.

05:42. Apparently my sister didn't go to bed yesterday, I need to ask her about her ex-husband and talk about medallions for my parents.

10:27. Every 5 years after marriage, married couples must re-pass the compatibility test, because the couple may change values, characters, and attitudes to life, and much more.

So, on February 14, 2066, Nora and John re-passed the compatibility test, the result of which was 89%, which is unacceptable for married couples. The system terminated their marriage on the same day, without giving a second attempt. The law forbids remarriage to the same person, but paternity is preserved, so John could spend a lot of time with Mary. Therefore, a year passed, and our baby's sixth birthday came.

John gave his daughter a pendant with a photo of them together.

After telling this, the sister went somewhere and returned with a note in which was written the following:

"November 5, 2066.

I, John Lanford, leave all my savings to my ex-wife Nora Edinson and daughter Mary Edinson-Landford.

My dears, this year has been the most unbearable and difficult for me. I can't live without you and I want to be with you, but the system has destroyed all my dreams, all my life.

Nora, don't deny yourself anything and help our daughter fulfill all her dreams.

Mary, take care of your mother, she is your best and please choose a beautiful tree of rebirth for me.

Be happy, love you»

After the death of a loved one, Nora went to the hospital, because of this, my niece lived with us for six months, during which time I became friends with Mary. Then the sister recovered, bought a new house and moved there with her daughter, she decided to start a new life.

When she finished explaining, the nurse began to cry.

I reminded her that her parents' anniversary was coming up and suggested the idea of medallions, but it didn't help her calm down.

11:48. She fell asleep.

12:52. I went for a walk with Mary and Becky. She looks calm, as if she's already come to terms with the loss of her father, or just learned to hide her real feelings.

14:13. We're going home, and we'll pick up Yoru on the way, but we need to buy everything we need first.

15:50. There are so many bowls, toys, and beds in stores, and it all looks very cute, so we couldn't decide for a long time, especially with the collar.

16: 26. What a tiny Yoru, it's scary even to hold her in your hands; suddenly you will break something to this baby.

Now she needs to get a new chip, and she will become part of our family, so now we are going to the veterinary clinic.

19:36. Yoru is very playful and curious, and also clumsy and funny cat. I took more than 200 photos and it's still not enough for me. We need to create a separate album for her.

22:53. I called Rowley, and she was worried about me, and she wanted to call my parents, but she didn't know their number.

I shared the news from the competition with her and told her about Yoru, then asked her why she was sad during the last conversation.

It turned out that the system did not allow her brother in the EOPQ to work as a designer, but sent him to the qualification of programming mental tables, so she was upset.

23: 34. The Kitten fell asleep next to me.

01:43. I moved Yoru her cabin, so I could finally sleep without worrying about her life.

Bye, Diary.

Day 28.

Hello, Diary

Today, December 11, 2068, of the year Sunday.

On the street -9, clearly.

06:32. Yoru slept with me this morning. I don't want to leave her at home alone, but I have to go to school.

08:55. We sat next to each other for the entire lesson, after which He asked about Yoru. I showed him all the photos I had taken, and He missed her very much. Should I invite him to visit?

12:51. Yuna suggested that we have lunch together, and I knew that He would be with them, so I agreed.

13:21. He wasn't there.

15:48. Rowley invited me to go shopping; it's been a long time since I've updated my wardrobe.

16:21. The little angel constantly follows me and turns under my feet. It's so small that I have to keep an eye on it to avoid accidentally stepping on it.

16:52. I got quite carried away playing with a kitten and forgot about the meeting. Rowley won't be happy.

19: 26. When I went to “our” cafe, I didn't find it. I decided to call, thinking that she had already left without waiting, but it turned out that Rowley was playing virtual races with Emet, and she was late. I should not have been in such a hurry.

After a snack, we went to the shops as planned. Rowley was buying light clothes because she wants to marry Emet after New Year and go to the sea.

In 20 days, my friend will become a wife. How can you even believe that?

22:18. I did all my homework while Yoru was lying on my lap. This is the sweetest creature I've ever seen.

22:53. I couldn't get up from my chair because I didn't want to disturb this nocturnal beast.

Bye, Diary.

Day 29.

Hello, Diary.

Today is December 13, 2068, Tuesday.

On the street -5, cloudy.

14:54. He doesn't talk to me. Did I offend Him? What did I do wrong? We had a good conversation before.

16:58. I went to a jewelry store and bought medallions.

17:21. Yuna invited me to a newly opened bike rental Park. I need to relax, because I've been walking around in a fog all day.

19:43. It was fun. I learned the basics of driving a motorcycle, and I was even invited to join a motorcycle club to participate in entertainment performances. I said I would think about it. Motorcycle racing is a good opportunity to get away from your thoughts and get a dose of adrenaline.

I think I'll sign up for this club after the New Year.

It took Sammy a long time to learn how to keep his balance, and when he was able to move, he hit the curb. It is good that the instructor managed to react in time, and his injury was relatively minor, a dislocated shoulder. We called an ambulance. Yuna decided to go with him to the hospital, and the others went home.

23:12. I put the portraits in the medallions, the gift is ready! Yoru helped me with it all the time.

Rowley talked about her and Emet's plans for the week off after their marriage. They will live in the Villa with her aunt. Take a walk in the mountains that are close to the coast, go for a boat ride and go diving.

The friend was excited, spoke quickly and a lot, jumped from topic to topic. Apparently, Emet still influenced her, now she doesn't try to hide her emotions, and I'm glad of that.

23:32. Lessons are done. Time for bed. The kitten is already waiting for me on the bed.

Bye, Diary.

Day 30.

Hello, Diary.

Today, December 15, 2068, of the year Thursday.

On the street -10, snow.

10:54. Is he ignoring me? Why?

13:30. I started having lunch with Yuna and the rest of my classmates all the time. Sammy is out of practice for the rest of this week due to an injury.

13:33. *Diary, I want to tell you about Sammy Vermundo. *

We met this year while going to a concert. He is studying in the same class with Yuna, and wants to enter the EOPQ for creating musical images.

He is fond of collecting vinyl records.

Sammy is outgoing and curious.

After communicating with him, it seems as if everyone found out about you only by one greeting.

I think it can make high-quality advertising that will promote products or services well.

He has leadership qualities, but uses them very rarely. So, it was he who organized duty near the base and rescue operations during a virtual battle with students from a parallel class.

He looks distracted, disorganized, sloppy, and naive.

During the execution of one of the group projects, he offered to gather in his apartment. We joked that we would have to do a major cleaning of the house before starting work, but we were wrong. His apartment was clean, and everything was arranged exactly on the shelves, as if our Sammy didn't live here.

* End of Dating. *

16: 21. My Mother said that the test would start in half an hour. I hope their result will be higher than 89%.

16: 35. Nora, Mary, and Becky are on their way to visit us.

17:04. Their result is 97%! I'm thrilled. Now parents go to the store to buy food for the holiday.

19: 38. Our Pets with Mary are so different, Becky is big and white, and Yoru is small and black, but opposites attract. Their best friends now, and because of that, I'll have to clean up again tomorrow.

19:52. My parents really liked our gift; they said that they will wear these medallions all the time.

Tomorrow we plan to go to my grandmother and have fun in the country house.

23:41. I decided to go for a walk with Becky and stopped by the Park.

There were no lights in the Windows of His apartment. Has he left yet?”

01:32. Who is the champion of the “Illusory world”? Of course, I am! Beat all 3 times in a row. Today, luck is definitely on my side, or I was able to conquer the theory of the probability of a polyhedral cube falling.

02:47. We decided to take the whole family for a walk through the night city, and I remembered our walk with him, but Mary distracted me from my thoughts with her scream: “Look, star!” We all looked up at the sky and saw a meteor flying by.

03: 26. Tired. When we got home, Yoru and Becky were snuggled up in the same bed. Another cute photo in the collection.

Now it's time for me to go to bed.

Bye, Diary.

Day 31.

Hello, Diary.

Today is December 17, 2068, Saturday.

On the street -8, clearly.

10:37. Our holiday continued at my grandmother's country house, and we had a party, then watched a movie together and went to bed.

11: 21. Yoru very attached to Becky and always follows her, I don't want to separate them, but I need to go home. I hope she doesn't miss the giant cloud too much.

14:43. He wrote to me and asked for forgiveness for not communicating with me recently, asked not to worry, because the problem has already been solved. Now our relationship will return to normal, I'm glad.

16:51. Rowley said that her photo project was accepted for the annual competition, if this work takes a place above the hundredth, then a place in the EOPQ for a photographer is provided for her.

Then I called Yuna and asked if she was participating in this competition. The answer was yes.

I hope that their work will be honestly appreciated, and they will get the result they deserve. But we won't know until next month.

18: 12. Yoru is been sleeping all day, probably running around with Becky.

I did my homework. I'll walk to the Park.

23:13. We met again. For most of the walk, He listened to me in silence and was lost in his own thoughts.

What happened? I hope His family is all right.

23:32. I had a headache again, so I took the medicine. I'll wait for the effect and go to bed.

Bye, Diary.

Day 32.

Hello, Diary.

Today is December 21, 2068, Wednesday.

On the street -9, snow.

08:53. I understand nothing. One day He is sociable, another day he is silent, and the third day he does not show up at school at all.

What's happening to Him?

I'll find out the reason if He doesn't want to tell me.

13: 56. The Guys don't know anything about it either. Everyone is as worried about Him as I am. But my concern is enough for Him! I will definitely go to the Park.

15:49. He's not home, again.

18:31. I found out that He was having trouble getting in, but I can't figure out why. The system also defined it in the criminal procedure code for an athlete, and this was decided long ago. What's wrong?

19: 36. No, no, no! I took all my medications. Everything should be fine. I'm just overworked. I need to sleep.

Bye, Diary.

Day 33.

Hello, Diary.

Today is Thursday, December 22, 2068.

On the street -9, snow.

07:52. He came and communicates with everyone as usual. So is everything all right?

08: 56. We sat next to each other again for the entire lesson.

10:22. The next two weeks are declared free in honor of the holiday.

12:57. He invited me to lunch with the boys, but Yuna usually did it. Is she out today?

13:55. It turns out that she didn't come to school because she had a cold.

17:34. I went shopping for New Year’s gifts.

I think Rowley will be happy to get beautiful cartridges for her instant print camera, and Emet will be happy to go to the race, which will be held in a neighboring city. Mom and dad will buy paired theater tickets. For Becky and Yoru I decided to find the same Christmas costumes. I want to give Nora a collectible coin that she has been looking for a long time, and Mary – a ticket for a dog walk in the woods. Let them learn how to survive with cloud. Children from school – Goodies.

But I don't know what to make for Him.

You can buy a figure from His favorite movie, but He never said that he likes it. This way I can put myself in an awkward position, and it won't be good if He finds out that I've been following him for more than two years. Then I will give Him a ticket to a concert of our favorite band, which we discussed during one of our walks. I think He'll be happy about it.

19:35. I called Yuna, she went to her friends' house for the weekend, and they decided to have a bonfire on the lake. The friend was lightly dressed, so she froze, and the next morning she had a fever. She's fine now. She loves everything cute, so the surprise is ready for her.

23:26. We correspond with Him again. I guess I shouldn't have worried so much.

Bye, Diary.

Day 34.

Hello, Diary.

Today is December 26, 2068, Monday.

It's -10 outside, okay.

14:32. Rowley suggested going shopping and buying Christmas presents. I hope that this time she will not overdo it and will come in time.

20:59. Why can't any of our walks be without adventure?

We went to the store, but most of the time we didn't choose gifts, but tried on things. It was fun. Then they began to return home and decided to have a snack, and after dinner, they went home.

As I approached the Park, Rowley called me and told me that she had lost her gift bag. I took my purchases home and went back to her, after which we walked around the neighborhood several times. In the end, she bought even more things, and the lost package ended up in the cafe where we had dinner.

22:48. I'm tired.

Bye, Diary.

Day 35.

Hello, Diary.

Today is December 28, 2068, Wednesday.

On the street -7, Sunny.

15:07. He called me to “send me off”. This weekend, He enters the EOPQ and graduates from our school. We will celebrate this at the entertainment center, where we will go to the play area, then go for a snack and go for a walk in the Park. He wanted to ride motorcycles with us.

17:11. I decided to give him a photo album dedicated to her, because he misses Her.

19: 23. Called Rowley, invited to their wedding with Emet, which will take place on 1 January. I asked her: “Aren't you in too much of a hurry?” Rowley said that I was jealous of her happiness and hung up.

19:42. Why did I mess it up again? It's important to her. I should have supported Rowley's decision.

20:41. My head hurts. I start taking painkillers every day, they don't help at all. If my parents find out I'm getting sick again, they'll start to worry. You can't tell them.

21:26. Yoru seems to feel my condition and doesn't leave me, she's worried.

22:51. I finished the album for Him.

Bye, Diary.

Day 36.

Hello, Diary.

Today is December 29, 2068, Thursday.

On the street -7, snow.

11:42. We gathered to go to the entertainment center together and have a lot of fun. I want to spend as much time with Him as possible while I can.

In the morning, I feel bad from the realization that we will no longer sit together in class, we will not have lunch at the same table, and if He decides to move closer to the EOPQ, we will even stop seeing each other in the Park. This is terrible!

17:12. Sammy said that new slot machines were brought to this center, and we decided to try them out.

19:13. We went to His favorite cafe, where they sell delicious pancakes with various syrups and fillings. I had pancakes with strawberry syrup, He had pancakes with chocolate cream, Sammy and Yuna had maple syrup, and the others had cream or ice cream.

20:35. We rode motorcycles, and I told the instructor that I would start training after the New Year.

He also quickly mastered the controls, and we even had a small race, but He was not able to overtake a professional like me.

01:58. He saw me off, and I gave him the gift, and He thanked me and went back to his thoughts, again.

I thought we'd walk all the way in silence. But when they reached the Park, He offered to sit down, and then said that He was not accepted in the criminal procedure code for the athlete because of the result of the last medical examination. The system enrolled him in an institution of professional qualification for an architect, which is located in another city. They've already given him a room and will help him with the move, which starts tomorrow. So saying, He got up and went home, and I was left alone.

Why is this happening? This can't be real! Maybe He was just joking.

This is not true! It's just a dream! It was just a nightmare!

02:37. I do not remember how much time I spent in the Park, but when he looked out His window, there's not a light was burning.

03:40. How can you sleep in your sleep? But I must, or I won't be able to Wake up, or everything will stay the same, or He will really leave me.

04:05. Come on, I just need to sleep!

04:32. I have already taken 7 sleeping pills and 5 sedatives, but nothing helps me. My headaches, everything swims before my eyes. When will I Wake up from this delirium?

04:51. Don't leave me, please! Only You make me happy.

Day 37.

Hello, Diary.

Today is December 30, 2068, Friday.

On the street -7, snow.

07:13. I couldn't sleep.

My parents are already awake. We have to go to Mary's, and tomorrow grandma will come, and we will celebrate the New Year together. We need to prepare gifts. Where did I put them?

08: 32. * Update His status. *

Dino Curzon was born on June 27, 2051. His height is 175 cm, weight 70-72 kg.

Her dark, unruly hair is always prettily styled, and her eyes often change color from bright blue to gray depending on the light and time of year.

He has a calm pace of communication, and his voice calms, sometimes even puts you to sleep. But if Dino wants to share a happy news, he becomes loud, and his speech is fast and unintelligible, at such moments, he seems to glow with happiness, and people around him are charged with this positive.

Dino prefers to wear loose clothing that matches the color.

His favorite autumn-spring clothing set is a Burgundy hoodie, dark green jeans, and white sneakers. Summer – loose shirt, gray trousers and black sneakers. Winter – black sweater, classic khaki pants, gray coat, scarf (pants color) and black shoes.

I first met him in the Park on July 23, 2066. That day, he returned from the competition and enjoyed the warm weather with a book in his hands. Then I drew some portraits and couldn't forget him anymore.

Some people call it love at first sight, but I think in the beginning I was just attracted to his appearance and the book “one Hundred years of solitude”, which I bought the same day.

Then I often came to this Park and watched him, learned that he lives in a house opposite the Park, and the Windows of his room are clearly visible from here. Before I noticed it, I started keeping daily records of it, and at the beginning of the 6th school year, I found out that we go to the same school.

* Add: *

– First spoke to each other on November 26, 2068 at a concert of the band Yogen. —

Before entering school, Dino lived with his grandparents because his parents were on permanent business trips.

His results of the mandatory professional aptitude test:

First year of study.

…

The result of the medical examination – A.

Result: transferred to the fifth stage in the class of artistic image of technology.

Second year of study.

…

The result of the medical examination – B.

The result: remained on the fifth stage, transferred to the class of the artistic image of the sign.

The third year of study.

…

The result of the medical examination – A.

Result: transferred to the sixth stage, remained in the class of the artistic image of the sign.

Fourth year of study.

…

The result of the medical examination – A.

The result: remained on the sixth stage, transferred to the class of artistic image of technology.

Fifth year of study.

…

The result of the medical examination – A.

The result: I remained at the sixth stage in the class of artistic image of technology.

Sixth year of study.

…

The result of the medical examination is B.

The result: I remained at the sixth stage in the class of artistic image of technology.

Seventh year of study.

…

The result of the medical examination – A.

Result: transferred to the seventh stage, remained in the class of artistic image of technology.

Eighth year of study.

…

The result of the medical examination – A.

The result: I remained at the seventh stage in the class of artistic image of technology.

Ninth year of study.

…

The result of the medical examination – A.

The result: I remained at the seventh stage in the class of artistic image of technology.

Tenth year of study.

…

The result of the medical examination-V.

The result: I remained at the seventh stage in the class of artistic image of technology.

* Add: *

– Enrolled by the system in the institution of professional qualification as an architect. —

Hobbies: athletics, video games, reading books, extreme entertainment.

* Add: *

– He also likes to follow criminals, find out their motives and methods of escape, he builds his theories and guesses about it, and sometimes turns out to be right. —

Likes animals, music of various styles, sweets, astronomy, sports programs, cooking, spring, warm rain and green.

Dino can find common topics to communicate with any person, because of this; he has many friends. He is attractive and knows about it, never goes against the wishes and values his time. He is used to taking care of himself from an early age, so he never asks for help.

His daily routine:

06:30. Wakes.

06:45. Breakfasts.

07:00. Go to school.

15:50. Goes to extra classes.

16:50. On Monday, Tuesday, Thursday and Friday goes to training. And the rest of the day – home.

18:45. Does his homework or does what he likes.

After that, he communicates with friends, walks, or performs some work around the house, such as cooking.

23:45. Goes to bed.

On weekends, he leaves the city to visit his grandparents or go on active holidays with his parents.

I want to tell you a little about his relatives:

Dino's brother, Ryan light, was born on September 5, 2046, and graduated from high school in 2063, after which the system assigned him to the EOPQ as a Manager of construction companies.

Ryan is organized, serious, responsible and reliable, prefers a slow and planned lifestyle, does not like surprises, but easily finds a solution to any problem.

* Add: *

– At the moment, he is studying at the last stage of the criminal procedure code. —

Married since 2065.

Is in a neutral relationship with Dino.

Dino's mother – Niri light was born on October 17, 2026, graduated from school in 2043, after which the system assigned her to the EOPQ for statistics, which she graduated in 2048, then began working in her specialty.

Niri is calm, organized and caring, concerned for the well-being of her family and often overworked at work.

Married since 2046. The results of compatibility tests with my husband: 1 test– 94%, 2 – 91%, 3 – 93%, 4 – 96%, 5 – 95%.

She takes care of Dino and Ryan, tries to arrange family evenings more often and go out for walks together. Blames herself for not spending enough time with Dino because of work.

Niri has weak lungs, which has been passed on to her children.

Dino's father, Lauren Curzon, was born on August 3, 2027, graduated from high school in 2047, after which the system assigned him to the EOPQ as a sculptor, from which he graduated in 2048, and then began working in his specialty.

Lauren is dreamy, cheerful, responsible and stubborn, does not like a quiet life and is always looking for adventures.

* Add: *

– Has an Allergy to cats. —

The father respects his wife, and on each birthday gives her a new work of art, so their house is more like a Museum. He is a friend to Dino and teaches him about life by telling him about his mistakes made because of “youthful maximalist”.

Believes that Dino has little fun and wastes his youth, has a neutral relationship with Ryan and considers Him too serious.

My aunt and uncle Dino live in the countryside, not far from the mountains, graduated from the EOPQ for the creators of the natural image in 2049.

Married since 2050. They have a daughter, Vina, born in 2052, who is studying at the 7th stage in the class of artistic image of nature.

They treat Dino as their own son, who should have been his age, but died 3 days after birth.

* End of its status update. *

10:34. It is not true. This is all a lie. Lies!

It's just a dream. Yes, a dream.

Where are the medications?

10:41. They're over. But we took at least 3 packs of sedatives after the hospital, where did they all go? Understand nothing.

13:14. We're going to my sister's.

17:45. I was walking with Mary and Becky, and she said, “Norma, What's wrong with you? Why are you sad?" but I didn't answer.

19: 36. Yoru are always next to me, and next to Yoru is always Becky, I am surrounded by animals, but this does not calm me in any way.

21:41. I can't sleep again.

01:29. I saw Him standing under the window, but when I ran out into the yard, He was gone.

02:10. I need to sleep.

03:21. It’s time to sleep.

Bye, Diary.

Day 38.

Hello, Diary.

Today is December 31, 2068, Saturday.

On the street -11, windy.

12:23. I fell asleep from exhaustion, or the pills finally took effect.

12:42. Mary said they couldn't Wake me up for a long time, thought I was unconscious, and were going to call an ambulance.

15:19. We decorated the tree. Now we will start preparing New Year’s salads.

18:21. My grandmother arrived.

20:46. I went for a walk with Becky because I can't be home right now.

21:12. I'm sure I saw Him yesterday.

23:31. We sit down at the festive table.

00:12. Happy New Year.

03:36. We launched fireworks and burned fireworks then gave each other gifts.

My grandmother gave me an instant print camera, Nora gave me cartridges for it, and my parents gave me a subscription to motorcycle driving lessons.

04:12. Dino wished mea happy new year in a blog post. Why does it remind you of itself? Why does he keep hurting me? I wish He'd disappeared! I wish I'd never met Him!

04:32. It was definitely Dino, standing on the street again. I ran out after Him, then I saw Him at the edge of the street, walking away, and then suddenly he was gone. I tried to catch up with Him and ended up in the middle of the road. It's a good thing no one went here on New Year's Eve.

05:21. I'm tired. Maybe I can still sleep.

Day 39.

Hello, Diary.

Today is January 1, 2069, Sunday.

On the street -6, windy.

10:22. I was able to get some sleep, even though I woke up every half hour.

11:02. Today is Rowley and Emet's wedding.

14:18. I called all my friends and wished them a happy new year.

Sammy said I sounded sad, but I was able to change the subject by telling him about my parents' gift, and he also decided to sign up for driving classes, so we'll be together. It's good. If the bike can't distract me from thinking about It, then Sammy can.

Yuna went to stay with her brother during her free week. The rest of the people also went to their friends.

16: 46. I wanted to congratulate Rowley, but she doesn't pick up the phone. I wrote her a message. I hope she will be happy in this marriage.

17:19. My grandmother offered to spend a free week with her, and I agreed.

I don't want to go back to the city, walk past the Park and see my school. It has everything that reminds you of Dino, except for him. Why can't this just be a dream? Why should I feel this terrible sense of longing for my beloved?

17: 24. My grandmother has a small room set aside for a library. I think I can find books there that I've wanted to read for a long time.

21:35. We arrived.

03: 28. I found “Fahrenheit 451”.

06:53. Why did she have to die? She was the only person I really liked in this piece and whose thoughts I understood. She was the smartest person in the world. It is cruel to take the life of kindest and immaculate character.

08:06. I was awake again.

Day 40.

Hello, Diary.

Today is Wednesday, January 4, 2069.

It's -5 outside, cloudy.

09:03. I hardly leave the library, I don't want to sleep or eat, I just try to forget Him. But what I really want is for Dino to be there for me. I want to go back to the hospital. I want to go back to the concert. I want to go back to Him.

09:33. I hate the system! Who invented it? It should make our life stable and stable, and therefore happy.

But why do people get nothing but suffering from the system's decisions? Why should we obey its decisions? Why can't I just be with Him? Who will answer these questions?

Diary, I feel bad, and I can only tell you this, or they'll put me back in the hospital. And this time He will not visit me, this pain will not end in one week, my health will deteriorate.

I hope that Dino will be happy, find new friends, fall in love with another person, and marry them. This is happiness, isn't it? Is this happiness?

12:32. I always feel like He's watching me. Maybe Dino cheated on me and never left? Yes, that's right. It was just a joke, and after a free week, we will meet in the Park, as before. He couldn't leave me!

15: 24. Sammy talks to me every day and recently said: “After “Dino wire” you have changed, your voice has become sad and nothing pleases you. Are you sure, you're okay? You can trust me,” but I changed the subject again, talking about the books I'd read.

Was he always this caring?

17:21. Yuna sends many photos, she does not lose a free week at home, and every day she goes somewhere with relatives. Yesterday they were in the mountains and reached the “Big cliff”, from the edge of which there is a stunning view. Dino and I need to go there sometime.

19: 27. My Mother says that Yoru only sleeps on my bed and misses me very much.

Dino gave her a nickname in his great-grandfather's native language. I heard this language at the world unification festival, it sounds beautiful and unusual. My native language is one of the European ones, I can't say more precisely, because I have never discussed it with my parents, and why, if one single language has been declared for more than 60 years.

22:51. I decided to take a walk in the garden because I can't sleep.

23: 23. Again saw Dino, tried to catch up, but when touched His hands, He disappeared. What is happening to me?

03: 42. I need to sleep; otherwise, I will lose consciousness again from exhaustion.

Bye, Diary.

Day 41.

Hello, Diary.

Today is January 6, 2069, Friday.

On the street -6, clear.

07:51. I had a dream.

Dean and I met in the Park and went for a walk, walking around the city and talking about things as usual.

It was getting darker outside, and He suggested that we look at the night city from a height. We went up to the balcony of a high-rise building, then looked at the lights for a long time, until I remembered that we had already been here. I wanted to tell him about it, but Dino wouldn't let me say a word, pushing me off the balcony.

I remember flying down and looking into His eyes all the time. Those eyes again.

It was definitely that night on December 6, 2068, and I realized it in a dream.

But because of this, is it necessary to throw people off the balcony?

Dreams are so strange. My grandmother told me that people used to try to predict the future from them, which is as stupid as the influence of stars on the fate of a person or divination. In my dream, when we were crossing the bridge, I saw swans and rainbows; although that night none of these things happened or could have happened. Can I ask my grandmother what this might mean?

09: 42. She gave me a dream book and told me that there I would find answers to all my questions.

11:36. The dream book says that swans mean joy, happiness and well-being, and the rainbow – good news and false fear. How am I supposed to understand all this?

16: 12. Sammy called again, but we only talked for 5 minutes, which is weird. I hope he's all right.

18:41. Will Dino come to me every day, so I don't forget about Him? Each of our “dates” ends the same way, and as soon as I reach out to touch Him, He disappears.

19:11. My parents are coming to pick me up tomorrow, and I'm going back to the city, and I don't want to go back to a place where I can't meet Him.

02:43. I need to sleep.

Bye, Diary.

Day 42.

Hello, Diary.

Today is January 8, 2069, Sunday.

On the street -4, windy.

13:52. Sammy's worried about me, and he doesn't believe my excuses anymore.

16:43. We arrived home.

18: 12. Yoru gets in the way, again.

19:55. I did my homework. I don't want to go to school tomorrow, but I need to give my new year's gifts to the kids.

23: 49. Need to sleep.

05:10. I Wake up every hour. My head hurts.

Day 43.

Hello, Diary.

Today is Monday, January 9, 2069.

It's -3 outside, cloudy.

07:51. On the way to school, I ran into a young Girl, usually our paths did not intersect, because I went there through the Park. She cares about me too much.

09:52. Sammy follows me around all the time, which is annoying, and he gave me a little motorcycle keychain.

Today will be my first class.

13:42. I didn't want to have dinner, but Yuna persuaded me to go with them.

16:34. The class will start at 17:00. I hope I don't crash on the same day.

19:40. Everything went well. In the first week, we will be explained the rules of driving, after which we will have to pass a test, passing which you can go to practice.

After class, Sammy walked me home, even though I told him I wanted to be alone. Annoy. Because of him, I couldn't go to the drugstore for sleeping pills.

20:52. I remembered the gift from Yuna, and it's time to unpack it.

21:55. There were bath bombs with different smells and a book that I had long wanted to read, but could not find the time to do so. I need to thank her tomorrow.

21:14. How did Sammy find out the address of my blog? His behavior is beginning to frighten me.

02:22. I saw Him again. This time I didn't run outside, and we just played peek-a-Boo through the window, then I picked up a graphics tablet and drew until Dino disappeared again.

03:17. I'll go to bed, but it won't be any use.

Bye, Diary.

Day 44.

Hello, Diary.

Today is January 12, 2069, Thursday.

On the street -5, snow.

13: 56. The Guys spent the entire lunch discussing how we would celebrate my birthday, but I had to upset them. I have driving lessons tomorrow and I won't have any free time, especially since I've already arranged with my sister to go to the movies to see a horror movie, because I was born on Friday the 13.

16: 13. Sammy walked me out, again. Why is he doing this? It annoys me.

16:54. I bought a sedative.

18:34. Mary is coming tomorrow. I hope she doesn't bother me with questions about how I feel.

19:21. Now I communicate with Yuna every day, we go to school, spend time together at big changes. But I don't want to talk to anyone right now.

21:06. Why does everything in my room remind me of Dino? I've tried several times to throw away albums with His photos, but I can't do it. These memories are too precious for me. Their loss will cause me more pain than I'm feeling right now, missing Him. I don't want to forget His face, his voice, his smell. I want to go back to the days I spent with Him. I want Him around.

22:52. Dino is standing under the window, again. It's just an illusion, but I'm willing to run after her just to look into those eyes. The eyes of a loved one that I can only see in dreams, and all because of the system. We could be together, become a family, raise a child and live happily if the education system enrolled him in a professional qualification institution for an athlete.

02:41. I decided to go to the Park where our first meeting and last goodbye took place, I just need to check again if the light is on in his room.

04:06. I've taken my medicine and I'll finally be able to sleep properly.

Bye, Diary.

Day 45.

Hello, Diary.

Today is January 15, 2069, Sunday.

It's -4 outside, cloudy.

18:42. I woke up in the hospital. Nurses were running around and doing scans, and then the doctor and my parents came in. It turned out that I had an overdose of a sedative. How did this happen?

I don't remember anything. I went to bed at home, and woke up already under the IV.

19:23. It's hard for me to go and do anything. The doctor said it was the effect of a blood transfusion.

20:12. I slept through my birthday! Tomorrow my parents will definitely bring me gifts to the hospital; they must have been terribly scared when they realized that I might die.

21: 01. Forces there is no.

Bye, Diary.

Day 46.

Hello, Diary.

Today is January 16, 2069, Monday.

On the street -5, Sunny.

18: 23. Sammy, Yuna and other classmates, visited me, and they were told at school that I was in the hospital. They brought me gifts, bouquets of flowers, fruits and sweets and told me how they celebrated the New Year.

I guess I did make some real friends.

Yuna said that she took 62nd place in the annual photo project competition. I am happy for her, because now she will be able to enter the EOPQ as a photographer. And Sammy gave me a book called over the cuckoo's nest.

I've heard of this book, but its description didn't catch my eye. This is a story about a psychiatric clinic and a man who struggles with its rules.

I don't understand why you need to fight them. People based on the experience of the past and wanting a stable future created them, and stability is the key to a happy life. But since it's a gift, I think it's worth reading.

18:45. I was sorting through the gifts and noticed one small and inconspicuous, but very valuable for me bouquet of forget-me-nots. Did Dino come in when I was unconscious? No, no, no! Dino is currently in another city. Then who brought them?

19: 12. I have a terrible headache again, and the nurses won't give me painkillers because of a recent overdose. Annoying!

23:33. Tomorrow will come, Nora, Mary and parents.

Bye, Diary.

Day 47.

Hello, Diary.

Today is January 17, 2069, Tuesday.

It's -6 outside, cloudy.

19:38. My parents took me away for a day to celebrate my birthday. I'm glad of that. The hospital walls pressed down on me. The beds, the doctors, the view from the window, and the forget-me-nots in the vase all remind me of Him, and it's terrible.

That's not what I'm talking about, because I wanted to tell you about the holiday.

Because of my health, we did not go to the amusement Park, but celebrated at home. Mary gave me a matching pendant. I'll think of her more often now. Nora wanted a leather jacket, even though she knew I didn't like that kind of thing, but after my parents' gift, I understood.

From this day on, I have my own motorcycle, and I can get behind it as soon as I get my driver's license from driving school.

20:13. The girls who are in the room with me said that Sammy came in today and brought some fruit.

21:21. It turned out that he visited me every day. Why is he doing this? What does he want from me? I do not understand. I don't understand!

Head spinning and aching, again.

23:33. I was put on an IV, which made me feel better, but these flowers. You can't think about it.

Bye, Diary.

Day 48.

Hello, Diary.

Today is January 20, 2069, Friday.

On the street -8, Sunny.

20:32. Sammy always comes in after school or driving lessons. There's a test coming up, and I'm skipping everything, but he offered me his notes from class, and he's always helping me with my lessons, taking care of me.

I think less of Dean now, but these brief moments are getting more and more painful. I don't have enough IVs to go to sleep, even though I'm taking all the necessary medications, and my health is recovering quickly from daily scans, but these headaches and hallucinations don't stop.

Why doesn't he write to me? He forgot me, doesn't want to talk to me?

I was the only one interested in our relationship. He doesn't even know how I feel about him. How could Dino tie me to him so easily? Why did He offer to take me for a walk in the Park, in the city at night, and walk me home? What is all this? Was he just playing with me?

It hurts. It's unbearably painful.

How could I fall in love with such an egoist? Why did this happen to me? Why did I go to the Park then? Why did you go there every day? Why did you keep diaries? Why did you admire him? To suffer pain now? To hate yourself and curse the world? Even so, I will still run after Him. Even if I end up being hit by a car or falling off a bridge and drowning in a river, even if It's just an illusion. I can't forget Dino. I'll never let Him go. Dino is mine and mine alone.

Day 49.

Hello, Diary.

Today is January 24, 2069, Tuesday.

On the street -8, cloudy.

10:34. I was transferred to a psychiatric ward because, according to the nurses, I tried to jump off the window, but I don't remember anything about it. I guess I just wanted to go to Him. Why did they stop me from doing this?

15:46. I was in therapy with a psychiatrist. He asked me various questions about my family and Hobbies. He asked me to bring a graphic tablet next time and show my drawings. I don't want to talk to him.

Why should I tell my past and plans to a complete stranger who is just taking notes?

17:28. This Department is much more fun than the neurological Department. Just now, for example, we had a table game tournament, and I almost became a champion in drafts, but one person was able to beat me. I need to meet him tomorrow.

21:11. I'm in the ward with Lavender and Lily, they're twins, and their parents work with plant crops.

It turns out that Lavender in the language of flowers means admiration and loneliness, and Lily-loyalty and innocence. I think their parents confused their daughters when they gave those names, because Lily is emotional, hot-tempered, energetic and impatient, it is difficult to believe in her loyalty and innocence, and Lava, on the contrary, is a modest, calm, unhurried and lazy girl.

They were brought here because of suspected depression, because they had been refusing food and sleeping poorly for the past few weeks. The reason was the system that enrolled them in different EOPQ, located far away, and the twins simply cannot imagine life in the distance from each other.

23:58. I reread the Diary, and now I regret that I updated it. All entries about Him, except for the status, were deleted. How do I get them back? I want to remember everything about Dino: his favorite ice cream flavor, lucky number, Hobbies, fears. Why did I delete these beautiful notes? I miss him, and Dino doesn't even write to me.

03:37. I need to sleep.

Bye, Diary.

Day 50.

Hello, Diary.

Today is January 25, 2069, Wednesday.

On the street -8, clearly.

14:43. In the psychiatric ward, you can only visit patients on certain days, but many pass things through nurses, so I'm still surrounded by sweets and flowers. Sammy and I are constantly texting on the blog, and the nurse noticed this and started asking if we were dating. Does it look like this from the outside? I need to discuss this with Sammy over the weekend.

15:34. I met the winner of the checkers. His name is Catsu.

He was admitted to a psychiatric ward with stage 1 depression, and he had depersonalization and apathy. Catsu also told me that he wanted to kill himself, but he didn't have the strength to do it.

He's been here for a month, and he's much better. I wanted to ask why he was depressed, but I think Catsu will tell me if he wants to.

This winner is very modest and quiet, always sits alone during lunch and does not communicate with anyone.

Before being hospitalized, he studied at the EOPQ as a logic teacher. This is not surprising with his ability to calculate moves and build algorithms for winning, but sometimes Catsu seems to be an insensitive machine that performs its computational functions, rejecting all human emotions, so I want to surprise him and make some gift. On the weekend, perhaps, his family will come to visit, and I can ask my parents to bring my art supplies.

17:12. Lava and Lily said that forget-me-nots are a reminder of a person who is not around, so they are often planted in the groves of rebirth, as an appeal of the dead to the living. It is sad. I didn't think that such delicate and lovely flowers could have a sad meaning.

18: 34. We looked at each other again. When will it stop?

23:49. The nurse makes me go to bed, but I can't leave Dino alone, he'll disappear without me.

Day 51.

Hello, Diary.

Today is January 28 of the year 2069, Saturday.

On the street -7, Sunny.

12:42. Yuna came to me and brought the people with her, and we had fun.

Nothing interesting happened at the school, except the expulsion of the head of the student Council, a mass fight in the cafeteria, a disco in honor of the New Year, and the election of a new head of the Council. Lilia liked Yuna very much, and they quickly found a common language.

It's strange that Sammy didn't come with them; the people said that he was taking a test at driving school, and I was lying here. I would like to return to normal life as soon as possible.

14:21. My parents, sister, and Mary will be here by 19: 00. And their parents already took Lava and Lily.

I'll play Shogi with Catsu for a while; he recently explained the rules to me.

16:32. He's gloomier than usual today, but he says he just didn't get enough sleep. Why won't he tell me?

Sammy interrupted our long game, but I didn't want to leave Catsu alone, so I suggested that He spend time with us.

18: 23. Sammy asked forgiveness for the inconvenience caused by gossip and speculation about our relationship; he just worries about me as a good friend and classmate. He treats me like his little sister, who lives far away from our city. After apologizing, Sammy said that he passed the test and can now go to practice.

21:47. Mary entered the second stage in the class of natural image of signs! How quickly time passes when you don't watch it.

Nora brought me homemade cookies, which I haven't eaten since John died. My sister used to cook them for family holidays – a tradition she decided to forget, just like her ex-husband. But if she did make them, it means she's resigned to losing him, and that makes me happy.

I need to save some for Lava and Lily, and I need to buy some cookies for Catsu. Now he needs to eat well.

23:41. It's unusual to fall asleep in an empty room.

Do Lavender and Lilia often get bouquets of lavender and Lilia? You should definitely ask them.

Has anyone visited Catsu today? I don't remember anyone coming to see him. I feel more and sorrier for Catsu every day, and I want to hug and comfort Him and tell him that everything is going to get better. By the way, he liked Nora's cookies, and I'll bring him some more for breakfast.

Dino likes oatmeal cookies with chocolate chips and cherry marmalade.

02:36. He couldn't forget me! Dino will come back to me! We will be together!

03: 12. The Moon is beautiful, and the nurse went for a sedative, but why do I need it? I don't feel any pain; I don't feel anything at all now except emptiness.

Day 52.

Hello, Diary.

Today is January 29, 2069, Sunday.

On the street -7, cloudy.

14:31. I was with Catsu after breakfast. It looks much better today than it did yesterday. This pleases.

15:54. Lava and Lily arrived, and I shared cookies with them.

17:12. My parents came and brought everything I asked for. Now you need to draw a portrait and give it to Catsu. I hope he likes it.

19:41. Yuna came and spent most of her time with Lily and Lava. Sammy came with her. He gave me a trial version of the test so that I could prepare and, after discharge, start driving practice. It's good that he supports me.

21:03. I finally finished the portrait of the Cats.

22:33. He was very surprised by my gift and thanked me for a long time. He has a beautiful smile.

* Diary, it's time for you to get to know Catsu Kunala better. *

His height is 172 cm, weight 43 kg.

He lost weight during the depression because he didn't eat anything. His mental health has almost stabilized, and he is only in the hospital for weight gain.

It is interesting to play Board games with him, where logical thinking is required, not luck. Watching Catsu, I realized that it had long turned away from him. I want him to always smile.

Catsu is kind and always ready to help if asked, but because of his modesty and taciturnity, he is considered strange even in the psychiatric ward.

Catsu doesn't tell you much about himself, and it's hard for him to trust people. I think it has to do with his parents.

* End of Dating. *

23: 23. It’s time to sleep. I don't want to look out the window; I don't want to see Him now.

Bye, Diary.

Day 53.

Hello, Diary.

Today is January 31, 2069, Tuesday.

On the street -6, snow.

12:42. Today we went to the gym and had a little volleyball tournament. It's been a long time since I went into the game with my head, it's sad when our group lost, but I tried very hard. After the game, the Catsu praised me.

14:04. Today we made our own salad, just mixed sliced vegetables and dressing, but it was much more interesting than ready-made meals. Why don't other departments do this?

16: 33. I finished reading the book Sammy gave me. He keeps coming to me every day. This pleases.

Yuna talks to Lily more often now than to me, but it doesn't bother me at all. Now Lavender and I have become more connected, and I learn something new every day.

18:19. The doctor asked me to delete his portraits so that I would think less about Him. But they are too dear to me, if I do not follow the doctor's recommendations, I can stay in this hospital for another month.

23:01. My graphics tablet was taken from me, again. Why do they do this?

23: 22. Dino stopped visiting me, and I started to miss him even more. Why doesn't He come back? Did the drugs start working? But I want to see Him!

01: 44. Time for bed.

Bye, Diary.

Day 54.

Hello, Diary.

Today is February 2, 2069, Thursday.

On the street -6, snow.

14:43. Catsu was discharged, and he didn't even say goodbye to me. Was I just a distraction all this time? Why do these thoughts hurt me?

All people are the same. They use you when they need you, and then I throw you out of my life like a used toy! Hate.

These thoughts are killing me. Somebody helps me. I don't want to suffer anymore.

18:46. I was sedated; now I don't feel anything, again. It's even better; I don't want to feel these emotions anymore.

Bye, Diary.

Day 55.

Hello, Diary.

Today is Friday, February 3, 2069.

It's -5 outside, cloudy.

21:13. Nothing happened today.

Bye, Diary.

Day 56.

Hello, Diary.

Today is February 4, the year 2069, Saturday.

It's -3 outside, cloudy.

18:54. The cats came to visit me. It turned out that he did not expect to be discharged, and he was not given time to say goodbye to everyone. He apologized for a long time. Apparently, he was worried about me. After that, I got hysterical, again.

23:35. Dino came to see me. He said he was worried and bored. I asked him to unblock his blog so that we could communicate. But did I block it? I need to check it out tomorrow, and now I'm falling asleep from the medication.

Bye, Diary.

Day 57.

Hello, Diary.

Today is February 5, 2069, Sunday.

On the street -5, cloudy.

07:27. It turned out that I really blocked Him in the blog. Dino texted me every day, wishing me good morning and good night. He hasn't forgotten me!

08:33. I'll block Him, so I don't see these messages again. Yes, that would be better.

09:09. The doctor prescribed me Aqua therapy to relax my muscles, now I will swim in the pool. But will it help me?

18:32. Yuna and Sammy came to see me, and most of the time my friend was with Lily and Lava, and I was reading Tarot cards for Sammy. It amuses me to think that you can “predict” the future using cardboard boxes with strange images that tell you that Sammy is waiting for a difficult choice, but the system calculates everything for us. Future profession, marriage, pet ownership, divorce, children-it all depends on the systems.

My grandmother gave these fortune-telling cards to me, apparently, they are no longer suitable for our time, now we do not control our fate, and the Tarot can predict what can be changed.

20:13. Catsu came to see me, and I missed Him. Tomorrow, he will return to his EOPQ. I hope that Catsu will quickly catch up with the program, and he won't have any problems. The main thing is that he eats well at home. After discharge, I will go to visit him and cook something delicious.

23:54. I read the Diary again. I'll walk around the city at night and see all these lights, but really, I just want to see Dino.

My head is splitting, I need to sleep.

Bye, Diary.

Day 58.

Hello, Diary.

Today is February 17, 2069, Friday.

On the street -3, snow.

12:43. I'm sorry it took me so long to write. Dino was always there for me, and I didn't want to be distracted by Anything but him. We talked and ate together.

Today I spoke with a psychologist, and he said that I should delete everything related to Him. This was already happening when I had to update my Diary because I couldn't think of anything else. I always wondered what Dino was doing, what he liked, and I wanted to know everything, so I forgot about myself.

I went through numerous therapies, but the result was not enough for a long time, the doctor even began to think about partial removal of memories to improve my health, but because this procedure has side effects and requires a long recovery, this idea was left until my full adulthood (until my 21st birthday). And now the doctor suggested that I just delete the Diary.

18: 42. Lily spends hours chatting with Yuna, so I have to entertain Lavender, She also draws, and we have common topics to discuss. Most of all, she likes to make sketches of flowers, especially camellias, which mean modest superiority.

20:22. Sammy will be racing next week. How much I missed! I'd rather get back to school.

20:49. The cats passed all the tests and the test that I missed. I'm glad.

I also ask him to send me pictures of Breakfast, lunch, and dinner every day. I hope he does eat them. I already missed him. Catsu promised to visit me tomorrow.

03: 26. Dino wants us to walk around the hospital, but if I leave the room, the nurses will immediately give me medicine, because I'm just hallucinating. The real Dino is now sleeping in his room in another city.

Day 59.

Hello, Diary.

Today is 21 February of the year 2069, on Tuesday.

On the street -5, Sunny.

15: 13. * Delete the Diary. *

– The status of Rowley's friend Ula has been deleted. —

– The status of Emet Riga's friend has been deleted. —

– Yuna Temiko's friend status has been removed. —

– Status friend Sammy Vermundo removed. —

– Catsu Kunal's friend status has been removed. —

– Nora Edinson's sister status has been removed. —

– The status of John Lanford's brother has been removed. —

– Mary Lanford's niece status has been removed. —

– Kay Mads's father status removed. —

– The status of Sina Edinson's mother has been removed. —

– The status of Dean Curzon's lover has been removed. —

– The status of the owner of Norma Mads's Diary has been deleted. —

* Deletion completed. Thank you for using the Diary. *

* Diary installed. Enjoy your use. *

Day 1.

Good afternoon, Diary.

Today is June 15, 2073, Thursday.

On the street +18, windy.

11:32. * Let's get acquainted. *

My name is Norma Mads, and I was born on January 13, 2052.

My Hobbies are drawing, extreme driving, collecting photos and Board games.

I graduated from school in 2069, after which the system enrolled me in a professional qualification institution for a web designer.

I participate in motorcycle races and demonstrations.

I also have a pet – a cat named Yoru. We took her from the shelter on the recommendation of a psychologist 4 years ago. Yoru is a very calm and friendly cat. When she was a kitten, she made friends with Mary's dog-named Becky. They are fun to watch. If we come to visit each other, they always play together and then fall asleep in their arms. I already have three albums filled with their joint pictures.

I also have many nature photos in my collection, especially flowers. I am interested in learning their meanings and meanings, and with this, Lily and Lavender help me. They are twins, and their parents are fond of growing plants and creating bouquets for various holidays. I wish I had a job like this.

I have health problems. The doctors say that after this rehabilitation, it will be much easier for me. I don't understand what exactly has changed in me.

The doctor asked me to write down all the events in my life, plans, feelings and memories. That's why I kept a diary.

I hope it doesn't turn into a commotion list over time, as most people do.

* End of Dating. *

12:23. At first, it is unusual to talk about yourself. We'll have lunch, and then I'll lie down to rest.

14:38. At 15:00 will start horse riding. A horse, of course, is not comparable to a bike, but it is much better than breathing exercises.

17:29. Today I rode the star Again (she was given this name because of the white spot on her forehead). I'll bring her some carrots and sugar on the next walk.

At 18:00, there will be a literary hour (which usually lasts two and a half).

We are reading Harper Lee's to “Kill a Mockingbird”. At first, this novel seemed boring to me, but the plot begins to develop more and more.

20:57. We have free time until 22: 30, so I want to go out to the pond and draw a sunset. In recent days, it has become much brighter.

21:36. While making a leisurely sketch, I remembered walking down the alley with Catsu, after his graduation from the EOPQ to teach logic. It's hard to believe that now he works and teaches children, even though he is a child. I missed him. Tomorrow will be the day of reception for our Department, I hope it will come. Catsu said that he started teaching extra classes on Fridays. He's putting a lot of effort into our happy future, and I'm sitting here feeling awkward about it. I need to think about the good things, and then I will recover faster. Besides Catsu, many people want to visit me. Therefore, you will not be bored.

It's time to return to art. The beautiful can't wait forever.

22:48. Time for bed.

See you later, Diary.

Day 2.

Good morning, Diary.

Today is Friday, June 16, 2073.

Outside the window +20, Sunny.

08:31. Let me introduce you to the schedule of the day of our (neurological) Department in the rehabilitation center.

08:00. Rise.

09:00. Breakfast.

10:00. Morning treatments (I go to physical therapy and massage).

11:00. Snack (usually we are offered vegetable or fruit salads, various juices or compotes).

From 12: 00 to 13: 00. Free time when you can walk around the center, read in the library, play games with other patients.

13:00. Lunch.

From 14: 00 to 15: 00. Quiet hour. At this time, our building is being cleaned, so it is recommended to sit in the wards and relax.

15:00. Day treatments (I do horse riding, swimming, and lawn tennis).

17:00. Afternoon snack. When the weather is nice, we spend it outside as if it's a picnic.

18:00. On certain days, this is the time when visiting begins, and during the rest of the literary hour.

20:00. Supper.

20:30. Free evening time. If the weather is nice, we can take a walk or swim in the outdoor pool. There is even a small farm where you can come and take care of the animals. I often help in the stables; my favorites are star And Baby.

22:30. Late dinner.

23: 00. Sleep.

This is the schedule on weekdays, and on weekends, you can leave the center.

At the latter, for example, my sister picked me up, and we spent a quiet evening together watching an old movie.

I hope this weekend I will be meeting with Mary. She grew up to look even more like her father. He is definitely proud of such a wonderful daughter.

My parents are away again on a long business trip, so I won't be able to see them for another 5 months. I miss them.

Time to get ready for dinner.

14:47. The nurse handed over a bunch of wild flowers said it was a gift from a person.

20:43. I was visited by Lavender and told that the EOPQ is passing a practical month and her group needs to create an interior design for 3 apartments. Now they are finishing work on a classic-style apartment.

Next, we decided to analyze the meaning of the gift bouquet, which turned out to be a note: «See you soon». After parsing it, he got the following meaning: “I can't Express my feelings for you, because you are young and innocent, but too reckless, so be careful. I miss you!” Also in the bouquet was flax, which symbolizes a stable family life.

23: 24. I hope this incognito will soon reveal his identity to me, but now I need to sleep.

Good night, Diary.

Day 3.

Hello, Diary.

Today is June 17, 2073, Saturday.

On the street +19, rain.

09:42. Nora will arrive at the center at 10: 00, so I still have time to make notes.

* Diary, I want to introduce you to Nora Edinson. *

My sister Nora was born on May 4, 2042, graduated from high school in 2059, and graduated as a pediatrician in 2063. She married John Lanford in 2056, and gave birth to Mary on November 4, 2061. They lived a quiet family life, but after another compatibility test, they got an unsatisfactory result, and the system terminated their marriage.

In the year 2069, Nora entered into marriage with Damon Rock. He works as an anesthesiologist. After the corporate party at their clinic, Damon invited his sister to a cafe, and their relationship began.

The niece did not immediately accept Damon into the family, but she was no longer small, and understood everything, so now they live as a friendly family.

* End of Dating. *

10:03. I'll tell you all about it tonight. Don't miss.

18:42. I finally met Mary, who studies hard and goes to the dog-training center every day. Mary has decided to connect her life with dogs, and she is doing a great job. She is studying at the 6th stage in the class of the natural image of a person.

When we arrived home, we were met by the most fluffy and good-natured cloud, which works for the benefit of society, helping in the search for missing people. Her niece treats her like her own child, protecting her, and Becky reciprocates.

We ate together at our favorite cafe, which serves pancakes with various additives; I ordered pancakes with chocolate cream, Nora – with cherry jam, and Mary-with vanilla ice cream.

22: 12. It was a busy day, and I was tired.

Good night, Diary.

Day 4.

Good morning, Diary.

Today is Sunday, June 18, 2073.

It's +20 outside, Sunny.

08:16. They promise good weather, so I plan to stay outside most of the day, take care of the baby, and go to the pool in the afternoon.

14:56. A veterinarian came to our horses and said the happy news: “Starlet will become a mother!” – We need to think about a name for the future foal. And the baby, the future father, will participate in regional races next week.

Now I'm going to the library to get some sweets for Mia, the librarian's daughter. She is a nice and obedient girl. It is interesting to communicate with Mia, and her thoughts and fantasies are unusual. After talking to her, I am always surprised that she is only 10 years old. We also have a similar literary taste, so we recommend books.

17:31. After discussing the next piece with Mia, I remembered the collection. I wanted to know its author, but my grandmother only said that my grandfather valued the collection, which was a gift from a dear friend. But why didn't she know people close to her grandfather?

18:04. We had a conversation with Nuna (Darina), and she promised that she would gather our entire group and come to visit me on Tuesday, and I wanted to spend the entire reception with Catsu. Now you will have to play the “Illusory world” five. I really missed them. Here I help the people with projects, but this does not compare to joint gatherings in the UPC buffet before the presentation of websites or advertising alerts.

20:12. Today, a bright orange sunset means that the weather will be warm.

According to forecasts, there should be a “Star fall” at night, so the nurses of our Department suggested that those who want to break their sleep regime and enjoy this spectacle.

Then I decided to talk to Yuna. It turned out that they, along with Lily and Lavender, went to the mountains on the weekend, because at the height of the star you can see much better. I wish I could join them.

01:42. The nurse called everyone to see the starry sky; you need to take a camera with you to add to the collection of beautiful sky.

03: 26. Flying comets are beautiful, enjoying this spectacle and almost forgot to take photos, I also made a wish. I hope it comes true.

And I'm very tired. Tomorrow the regular schedule will return and you will have to get up at 08: 00. I hope my head doesn't hurt too much.

Good night, Diary.

Day 5.

Good morning, Diary.

Today is Monday, June 19, 2073.

On the street +21, Sunny.

10:46. Today, instead of physical therapy, we had sports games. I chose volleyball. Our team had professional athletes, so it was not difficult for us to win. But I'm still very tired. The last time I played was 4 years ago, when I met Catsu. Now, on weekends, he plays volleyball in the company of Amateurs and even participates in inter-group competitions. He has become much more sociable. I hope that tomorrow the Catsu to visit me.

12:32. It's time to meet Mia. I think she's already missed me.

* Diary, I want to tell you a little about her. *

Mia Overlin was born on April 24, 2063. She is studying at the sixth stage in the class of the natural image of the sign.

Her parents' marriage was annulled a year ago, and she has been living with her father ever since. Despite this, Mia is a cheerful, sociable, dreamy and cheerful girl. I hope she's actually enjoying life and not pretending to be around. We need to introduce Mia and Mary. They have similar destinies and characters; they will definitely find a common language.

*This is all I can say now. *

15:45. I had tennis classes, but I couldn't concentrate, so I just trained with the wall, and Luna really wanted to have a rematch, after the recent defeat. Next time, she won't back down until she gets her way.

17:37. The ward is very noisy due to preparations for the disco. It's a pity that I'm not a fan of collective dancing to loud music, so I'll arrange a literary hour on the Bank of the pond, I'll introduce the local ducks to the classics.

22:56. Perhaps I should resume my card reading, because my fears were not unfounded. During the General fun and wild dancing, someone poured alcohol into all the drinks, and there was a mass poisoning. I think we'll have another personal check tomorrow. It's a good thing I didn't fall for the persuasions of my neighbors. Now I'm helping the nurses take care of the injured, and when there's nothing else to do, I'll go to bed.

Good night, Diary.

Day 6.

Hello, Diary.

Today is June 20, 2073, Tuesday.

On the street +24, windy.

12:05. It's been a long time since I drew flowers from nature, so I decided to spend my free time in the garden.

13: 33. I thought that because of the wind, it would be quite cool, but I was wrong. The breeze was very light and pleasant, which happens on the shore of reservoirs. This breeze reminded me of a little trip to celebrate my graduation.

We got together as a group, some of them invited their friends, I invited Catsu to come with us, and Yuna invited Lily and Lavender. There were many funny situations, but most of all I remember the moment when we all ran away from the guard, throwing a watermelon to each other.

We need to offer the people with the EOPQ to get together and go somewhere after the project work is completed.

14:54. Personal belongings were checked, but the culprit of the mass poisoning could not be found. He may still be among us, so we should be more careful.

19: 46. My classmates visited me, and we staged a large-scale battle in the “illusory world”. The fighting was brutal and merciless, everyone was fighting for every piece of land, and Catsu and I just joined a secret group and gradually took over other people's territories, but we were discovered and subjected to a cruel trial, Catsu took all the blame on himself, because of which he was banished from this game universe. After that, I thanked him very much for this selfless act.

Then I took a little tour of the rehabilitation center, and I guess I learned my advertising skills well, because Nick was ready to stay here forever.

Our project is nearing completion, but I will have time to participate in its final presentation to teachers and get my certificate of full professional qualification. By the way, the people approved the idea of a joint trip to the ocean. It turned out that Ruby's parents successfully sell real estate, so they have a small house on the island and a yacht. I was very surprised.

After that, I told the people a story about mass poisoning, which made nick want to move here even more. How many people, so many quirks. It's fun to watch the relationship between him and Ruby. They fight and fight all the time, but they never cross the line and always take care of each other. They will have to take a second compatibility test next year, and even if the system cancels their marriage, they will have an incredible celebration in honor of it. Such are my classmates and future colleagues.

21:45. It was chilly in the evening, so I decided to read the books in the ward that I had taken from the library. Mia and her dad are in town because the school week is over, and she needs to get back to school, but I have her blog, so we'll definitely meet again.

22:32. A lot happened today, so I'm exhausted.

Good night, Diary.

Day 7.

Good morning, Diary.

Today is June 21, 2073, Wednesday.

On the street +23, cloudy.

08:12. I'm going to do some horse riding, then I'm going to talk to Lava and call Yuna, and then I'm going to take a walk around in the evening.

09: 42. Yuna and Lily are doing a graduation project.

I want to tell you a nice story about the development of their relationship. They met at the hospital, after which Lily and Lavender quickly recovered and were discharged before me. Then Yuna began to frequently call and meet with Lily, and after graduating from school, she entered the UPC of natural history, although they studied in different specialties, were always together, went on group trips and family holidays. After that, Lilia was not enough time that they spend in the EOPQ, even began to be jealous of Yuna for Lavender and me. She could ignore us for a week and threaten to move in with distant relatives, but Yuna calmed her down, and once offered to take a compatibility test, concluding a contract under the terms of which, if the test results are positive, they will become one family and live together, otherwise they will stop communicating. Lilia was very worried before this test, because she did not want to be with Yuna regardless of its result, but her worries were in vain. Now my friends are happily living together, raising a small Gecko, Coco. Soon it will be her birthday, and therefore the anniversary of their life together.

The final project of Yuna and Lily is called “the Flower of love”, in which they tell their story with the help of plants. Yuna takes photos and her wife writes text. I hope that they will invite me to show their works, and I will be able to appreciate their joint work.

17:02. Because of the upcoming competition, the Baby is engaged only with his master, the poet, I rode a Lexus. I think he's too old and slow.

Our snack will take place on the street, after which you can play badminton or beach volleyball. Still, there are excellent conditions for a full recovery from serious injuries or operations, but I want to go home, see my parents as soon as possible, and play chess with Catsu on the beach.

19:54. At the literary hour I remembered one phrase: “If someone calls you a word that they think is abusive, it's not an insult at all. This is not offensive, but only shows how pathetic this person is”.

20:52. I like the canteen in the rehabilitation center, because here you can choose what and how much you will eat. Of course, there is no coffee, and the menu is limited and balanced, but it is still better than the standard portions every day.

Now I'm going to go back to the ward to get my graphics tablet and go back to the garden.

Last time I found many unknown plants there. I'll draw them and show them to Lavender on Friday.

22:31. I'll have to take her to her parents' botanical garden after she's discharged. There is a very cozy atmosphere, and every flower is grown with care.

23:31. Catsu said good night to me, and I wish it to you, Diary.

See you soon.

Day 8.

Hello, Diary.

Today is Thursday, June 22, 2073.

On the street +26, clear.

11:46. It's time to hand over your books to the library.

14:51. It's hot and I'm tired. Can you skip tennis and relax? No, this is a bad idea, the Moon is ready to get me out of the ground to win back, so do not get in the way of it once again.

17:38. Despite my drowsiness, I didn't want to give in, much less lose. The opponent was also very serious, but this time the victory was won by friendship.

19:12. Instead of a literary hour, we were given free time, so I took a shower and going to sleep until dinner.

22:54. It was a difficult day. I'll say good night to my family and go to sleep.

See you tomorrow, Diary.

Day 9.

Hello, Diary.

Today is June 23, 2073, Friday.

On the street 23 in the afternoon.

11:42. I was allowed to go and watch the Baby race, I can't miss the opportunity to go outside the center before discharge.

12:14. It was raining hard outside. Therefore, the start was postponed for half an hour to prepare the racetrack. This was unexpected, some participants were indignant, but I did not pay attention to it, because I was admiring the rainbow. During this half hour, I talked to many horses and their riders. Then I stopped by the baby and its owner to offer a light snack in the form of fruit. But there was no opportunity for a quiet break, because the horse was very agitated and constantly tried to get out of the paddock, which is why we calm him down for the rest of the time.

12: 24. The Race starts in 5 minutes, so I have to go back to the stands, I hope everything will be fine with the Baby.

15:01. Today is a terrible day.

After the sixth lap, our hero firmly took the second position; I thought that this would continue to the victorious end. But, suddenly, from the last row of stands there was a loud Bang, like a shot, because of this the Kid panicked, reared up and threw his rider. The race was interrupted until the problem was resolved, for the safety of participants.

The horse was shot several times with a tranquilizer gun, but it did not calm down even after several hits. All this “show” the audience watched from beginning to end. And I was very annoyed when some of them started to broadcast live and treat it positively, enjoying the “exciting spectacle”. I felt bad, so I decided to find a rider who was also asked to leave the racetrack. But before I could get down to the exit, I heard another shot, and this time the target was not a dart with a sedative, but a bullet. For the next few seconds, I stared at the animal's lifeless body until I lost consciousness.

Now I feel depressed and can't believe I'll never see him again.

16:34. She underwent emergency therapy with a psychologist, where she tried to accept death. I was prescribed mild sedatives for a few days so that I wouldn't have trouble sleeping.

22:21. I couldn't collect my thoughts, and most of the time I lay with my face against the wall.

22:44. After talking to Catsu, I'm exhausted. He comforted me and promised to take me home for the weekend. Now that I hear his voice, I'll sleep in peace.

Good night, Diary.

Day 10.

Hello, Diary.

Today is June 24, 2073, Saturday.

On the street +24, windy.

05:13. I can't sleep anymore, so now I'm going to eat some sweets that the guys brought me recently and read a little.

10:47. At the reception, I was told that my sleep problems were due to stress, so I was allowed to go home with Catsu, but only until the evening. He should be here by 11: 00.

14:36. Why can't I stay at home? Again, you will have to return to the rehabilitation center in the evening and stay there for another 3 days. I'll be much more comfortable with Catsu, and I don't need any antidepressants around Him. Now he's cooking takoyaki (which he hasn't eaten in ages), and I'm lying on the bed with Yoru. And you know, diary, I'm happy.

After lunch, we will drive to the Park, where I will get behind the wheel of my motorcycle, a whole month has not experienced this sense of danger, mixed with delight.

17:03. I am exhausted, but charged with positive energy and inspiration. That's why I love extreme driving. However, Catsu is always worried about me, afraid that there will be an accident, and his experiences make sense. For example, once I skidded sharply on a turn, and I hurt my leg. It was an accident, but I'm sure I made a sharp turn myself, as if I didn't want to run over a person. This is strange, because no one went to the track. What made me turn?

I don't remember anything.

19:48. All good things end quickly. I didn't want to go back to the hospital, but Catsu convinced me otherwise. I don't know why, but I trust him more than I trust myself. I would rather graduate from the criminal procedure code. Then we'll do a compatibility test, and we can live together.

20:33. After a home-cooked meal prepared by a loved one, dinner in the dining room seemed like a modest treat.

21:41. I talked to Nuna, she sent me the completed project, now it remains to compose the text for the presentation, pass it and celebrate the graduation. Of course, if our project is approved and gets high scores, otherwise you will have to make edits or completely start working from scratch.

22:21. I have noted the main points of our work that need to be emphasized during the presentation, but I will do the main part of the text tomorrow. I can't ignore sleep, so I'll go out for a late dinner, take a shower, and go to bed.

Good night, Diary.

Day 11.

Hello, Diary.

Today is June 25, 2073, Sunday.

On the street +21, windy.

09: 36. I Think I will spend the whole day in the library working on the text for the presentation of the final web project. I'll talk to Yuna again. After discharge, I will go shopping to prepare gifts for their wedding anniversary.

11:44. I talked to the psychologist again. He said that I had coped well with stress, but I needed to talk more about my experiences and worries to people close to me. Now I want to talk to Mary, because she has an OTP next week, and she's been preparing all day, so I should distract her with a meaningless but interesting dialogue. She takes her studies too seriously. As soon as I get out of rehab and steal it for a couple of days, my niece should remember that she is a child, not a busy businessperson. Sometimes, compared to her, I feel like a lazy dumpling who can only ride a motorcycle, clinging to the curbs.

The end of a short break, it's time to return to the project on which my future vacation on the island depends.

14: 46. I do not leave the feeling that I forgot something important-to congratulate a dear person. But, I don't know anyone whose birthday fell on June 27. Perhaps because of overwork, I'm starting to confuse June and July. I want to take some time off from work. I'll walk to the garden and call Catsu, he's free.

18:25. There was a strong wind outside, so I'll make myself a drink to prevent colds according to my grandmother's recipe and take a hot bath. I can't get sick. I'll be released on Wednesday.

20:33. I talked to Mary. At the time of the call, she was making a report on Becky's physical condition after another patrol and search for missing children. This news surprised me, because the rehabilitation center is limited from the outside world, and we do not know the news that is happening outside it. It turns out that in recent weeks in our (and not only) city there are kidnappings of babies, aged from three to six years. Right now, there are 72 children. This is really frightening information, because up to 7 years of age, a person can not be tracked by a tracker on the identity chip due to the fact that it is not yet implanted in the palm of the hand. Children most often disappeared during walks, and witnesses say that they disappeared as soon as they were distracted for a short time.

With the help of search operations involving dogs and robots, 13 children were found, but their memory was completely cleared, and recordings from video cameras near their location were hacked. The security protection system is updated on a weekly basis, so only the person who was programming it could have committed the hack. All employees are undergoing an emergency check. I hope the culprit is found, or there will be leads.

Although my profession has nothing to do with the criminal world, but it is quite interesting to follow it. I expected that the system would identify me in the criminal procedure code as a journalist or reporter. But apparently, my vocation is web design.

After that, I decided to discuss it with Catsu, but I remembered that He didn't like my interest in criminal cases, and I gave up on the idea. He takes care of me too much, but it's better than the lack of care and attention.

22:15. I was inspired, so I drew some illustrations on the subject of recent events and almost were caught by a nurse. It's good that I managed to open a file with recent sketches of Botanical flowers. So we had a nice chat, and the nurse praised my drawings and moved on.

I don't know why I was afraid of the fact that I might reveal my knowledge of what was happening. Perhaps I would have been asked not to tell anyone in the center about this, and that's it. Although I'm sure most people already know everything from their friends, they just keep this innocent atmosphere of ignorance, like they're playing a game.

23:31. I sent the presentation to Т (I still don't understand why Darina asks me to call her that). She said that tomorrow she would send out parts of the text that should be prepared for certification. Now I find it difficult to focus on my studies after a month of rest. Even the task for the show I prepared all day, when I usually made such simple notes in an hour. Still, skills are lost without practice.

I'm tired, so I go to bed and say good night.

See you tomorrow, Diary.

Day 12.

Hello, Diary.

Today is Monday, June 26, 2073.

On the street +22, clear.

09:41. Today is the day of the visit, I need to invite Lava, because I have a lot of questions that she can answer, and I just missed her. Lava feels more alone than usual, because Lily is always close to Young. So it's worth reminding her of my existence.

11:26. During a month in the rehabilitation center, I got into the habit of taking antidepressants. I think that's why I was able to accept the Baby's death with ease. The psychiatrist said that the course of treatment would continue for another six months, so that I do not have panic attacks and do not return the memories that were the cause of poor health. I'm going to go out in the sun and work in the garden. Over the weekend, new Apple and pear seedlings were delivered. I can help you land them.

13:46. Today is the day of seafood. We had shrimp rice and seaweed salad for lunch. Such Catsu do not like a pity. He doesn't like fish, but he often makes beef and Turkey dishes, and sometimes even rabbit stew. Cooking gives him pleasure. Sometimes, when he gets carried away with the process, he may start humming a tune. Maybe Catsu is doing this on purpose to cheer me up. I miss him so much. I'd like to get home soon. There are still 2 days left, and I'm already putting my things in my bags.

Now I'm going to visit Starlet.

14:17. She had a miscarriage. The stable has a new employee who didn't know about her pregnancy and decided to ride a Star. The load on the horse was too strong, and she had 2 months to carry the foal, so there was an irreparable accident. Her health is not in danger.

And I wanted to visit her foal in a month, even came up with a name – Estrellita (little star), in honor of her parents.

22:10. Lavender was more talkative than usual. She became a student of a famous designer after he became interested in her work from a regional competition.

Lava spent the whole evening talking about how professional, intelligent, witty he is, and how his ideas are unconventional, fresh and relevant. She liked working with him, the designer was interested in her opinion, discussed his ideas with her, even entrusted her with a selection of colors for one of the projects. So my fears about the state of the Lava were unfounded, and I am very happy about it. After all, there are less than 2 weeks left before the final works are shown in our EOPQ. And after that, she can get a job as an assistant to this designer.

Our group will be enrolled in the company “Bonhomme”, after receiving a certificate of full professional qualification. But I didn't have time to read the text sent by Darina, so I should pay more attention to it tomorrow. I don't want to let my group down.

22:48. Catsu was late at work again, so we just exchanged brief messages, and he went to bed. I don't like it at all. I don't want him to prioritize our future over his health. As soon as I get home, the first thing I will do is correct his daily routine; he does not have a single free minute for rest, which is necessary for every person.

And now you need to monitor your regime. So I'll take a shower and go to bed.

Good night, Diary.

Day 13.

Good morning, Diary.

Today is June 27, 2073, Tuesday.

On the street +22, cloudy.

08:21. It's like the day before Christmas. I woke up happy and inspired. I'll be home tomorrow, get on my bike, meet Juno and Lily, visit Mary and Becky, lie in bed with Yoru, and have a romantic dinner for Catsu.

So many plans and ideas, but it's all for tomorrow. Now we need to change and go to Breakfast. We have a fruit day; I think this is the best end to my rehabilitation.

Although I will miss this place, which has become a temporary home for me, I do not want to lie here again. This center is like a separate world, with its own rules, gossip and holidays, and I like reality, because only there I can be happy together with people, animals and memories that are dear and valuable to me.

09:35. I never thought that you can eat fruit, but I have seen it in my own experience. How am I supposed to do aerial gymnastics now? I think if I rest a little, I'll feel better.

09:52. Sammy sent a lot of blog posts, but I don't have time to respond to them anymore.

11:13. For a snack, we were offered to make our own natural juice. Now I want a juicer home. I'll make vitamin shakes every morning for hard-working Catsu.

11:47. *I want you to meet Sammy Vermundo. *

He was born on July 27, 2052.

We became friends in 2068 while going to a concert and were in the same class. After graduating from high school in 2069, Sammy joined the UPC for creating musical images.

He is a member of the musical group of his UPK, plays drums, and also has the skills of vocals, playing the violin, piano and bass guitar. Most often, he listens to jazz and Blues, and occasionally classical music.

He is fond of collecting old music records and is proud to have collected all of Fleetwood Mac's albums.

Sammy sociable, caring, attentive and responsible (especially if we are talking about his sister Annie Vermundo). He is always looking for inspiration. A couple of years ago, we did extreme driving together, but he quickly got bored. This is the case with all his Hobbies, except music.

I want to tell you a little about his little sister. She lives with her parents in a nearby town, so she and Sammy can't see much of each other. But he told me the good news. The system enrolled Annie in the code of criminal procedure for creating musical images as a writer. When Sammy found out about this, he was incredibly happy and, catching a wave of inspiration, recorded an album. Annie is his Muse, innocent, young, and beautiful.

Sammy is also well versed in statistics, editing, and simplifying information. These skills help him create music that is liked by many people.

Sammy is able to catch the audience, and his constant search for something new adds freshness to the works. He has leadership qualities, but uses them very rarely. Often looks scattered, disorganized, not independent and naive. This happens because Sammy is constantly thinking, and a hundred different ideas and a thousand methods of implementing them are spinning in his head.

Sammy takes care of me, cares about me, always supports and helps, and I am grateful to him for this.

* End of Dating. *

He's become a part of my life, and I'm so used to it that I forgot to introduce you before. He will be 21 in a month. He promised to arrange a Grand celebration, invite friends from school and his group. This holiday will be like a concert with a cool private continuation.

And now I need to learn the text to get a certificate of full professional qualifications.

16: 42. Luna was discharged a couple of days ago. Why didn't she even say goodbye to me? So our last match ended in a draw. I'm upset. I need to find out more about her, and I'll ask her friends during the afternoon tea.

17:49. It turned out that Luna's discharge was unscheduled, so she didn't have time to say goodbye to anyone. Luna quickly packed up her Essentials and left. Most likely, she will continue rehabilitation after solving the problem. The literary hour is about to begin. I think we are waiting for the end of the book.

20:51. For dinner, there were fruit salads to choose from. I decided to eat a mango, banana, and kiwi salad. It's time to pack. I have many sweets left that I didn't eat; I'll leave them to the children.

Each discharge from our Department is a whole ritual, seeing a person off to a new world. On this day, everyone says wishes and instructions, exchanges numbers and blogs for further communication, and gives small gifts as a keepsake. Each extract is a joyful holiday, with a dreary aftertaste. This is what awaits me tomorrow, and now I need to write a farewell letter for the moon. I'll leave her my phone number. Maybe one day we'll run into each other again on the same tennis court, or have a nice chat over a Cup of tea in a small coffee shop.

22:52. All things are done, things are collected, books are handed over, memorable portraits are drawn. Now the most difficult task remains-to sleep quietly.

Well, wish me luck.

And I wish you good night, Diary.

Day 14.

Good morning, Diary.

Today is June 28, 2073, Wednesday.

On the street +24, clear.

08:23. This day has come. A full body scan will start at 10: 00, followed by discharge after lunch. I'm tired of waiting.

09:49. In honor of my discharge, a special Breakfast was prepared for me, consisting of my favorite dishes: chicken broth, vegetable salad, fruit tea and doughnuts. It was touching and sweet. I will definitely come back here to see the employees who took care of me for a month.

10:32. Inspection completed. The results are satisfactory.

The doctor recommended a follow-up examination in a month to track the body's response to urban stress and antidepressants. Now I'm free until lunch, so I'll take a walk around the center. I will make photos for the album, so that I can review them on winter evenings, returning to this carefree world.

12: 19. Asterisk fully recovered and looks more energetic than usual. I wonder if she coped with the loss of her child on her own, or if she, like me, was prescribed medication. But it doesn't matter, because she's healthy. I'm glad.

12: 41. I went To the pediatric Department to deliver a letter to Luna. I hope she'll contact me when she gets it.

13:42. The ceremony was held successfully. My roommates tied up a pair of bracelets as a keepsake. And the children I taught to play checkers gave me cute drawings. I gave them the remaining sweets. Some guys even started crying and asking me to stay. I was sad, but just then my boyfriend arrived and helped me.

It was funny to hear the story that he was the Prince of a hidden country and came for a beautiful and kind girl, who was looking for many years to make a Princess of his Kingdom. And, of course, Catsu couldn't get past me. We're going to the Mall to buy a juicer.

15:11. I think this day can be called the happiest of my life. It's time to change your password.

*Create a password 063073. *

17:13. The cats staged a romantic evening. We're going to a restaurant, then we'll watch a movie, and then I'll have a surprise. I'm looking forward to it, because I'm sure it will be an unforgettable experience, and then I'll tell you all about it.

02:43. It was incredible. I'm tired now, so I'll write down my impressions tomorrow.

Good night, Diary.

Day 15.

Hello, Diary.

Today is June 29, 2073, Thursday.

On the street +23, cloudy.

09: 24. As I said yesterday, our date started with a trip to a restaurant that opened in early summer near the house. After dinner, we went to the movie theater.

Catsu chose a film adaptation of the Arc de Triumphed, but I couldn't focus on the story because my mind was full of the surprise that awaited me next. Noticing this, the person suggested that we leave without watching the movie.

It took an hour to get to our destination, and after we arrived, we walked for another half hour through the woods, which piqued my interest even more. There were a lot of possible gift options in my head, but no offer could match the reality.

After a long walk, we came to the runway. There was no limit to my delight. Catsu booked a flight in an ultralight plane over a city at night. I like extreme driving, but I thought flying a plane was an unattainable dream. And so it became possible with the help of my lover. He is indeed a Prince, my Prince, and soon we will be a family. We will live together, meet the sunrises, see off the sunsets, I will cook snacks for him at work, and he will have a romantic dinner. Perhaps the system will consider us good parents, and we can have a child. Our flight lasted an hour, which passed in 10 minutes (at least, that's what it seemed to me). During this time, I managed to fill the memory with the camera and two phones. Lighted road lines, running along them, white and red stripes of cars. I never thought that a view from a height could be so exciting and beautiful. After the flight, I could not return to reality for a long time, staying at the height of a bird's flight, so I did not notice how I was at home. We ate some pastries and I went to bed.

Catsu is already at work; doing everything, he can to make my dreams come true. I am grateful to him for this and diligently studying in the EOPQ, so that our happy life began as early as possible. I need to arrange a meeting with the people to rehearse the speech, especially since we haven't been going for a long time.

09: 48. Ruby and Nick left yesterday to visit relatives, so we agreed to meet tomorrow at 16: 00 in the EOPQ to get used to the situation that awaits us on the test. Nuna also said that she will talk to the teachers to get a preliminary assessment and advice for our presentation.

Which means I'm free. I'll spend this time looking for a gift for Yuna, Lily, and Coco the Gecko. One of the gifts I have been preparing for the last 4 years, collecting photos on an album. I'm going to go shopping and meet Mia. Still, I became attached to her.

11:02. It seems that during my absence the city was completely rebuilt. To get to the nearest store, which I went to every day, I had to use the Navigator. Then I decided to go to the rendezvous point with Mia, and after getting completely lost, I sent her my location so that she could find me. The doctor warned me that there might be temporary problems with orientation, but I had no idea how much this would affect my daily life. Now I will wait for my guide.

11:11. Lately, I've always felt like I forgot someone important to me. But the memory of this person was the cause of my long-term depression, which is why they had to be removed. How can they be expensive if they hurt me? Why did I bring myself to a hospital bed thinking about this man? I found out about this from my medical card in the rehabilitation center. This curiosity will kill me one day, so I need a distraction now. I'll Call Lava. She will be able to charge me with positive energy, praising the achievements of an underrated genius-a master of color selection and creating an unforgettable atmosphere. I still can't figure out what scents he uses in his office, since everyone who has ever been there admires them.

11:28. She's not answering my calls, so she's working.

18: 53. At 11: 40, my Savior managed to find me. Mia said that I was close to the designated place, and she could walk to me in 5 minutes, but met on the way to the nursery and, without hesitation, looked there, successfully forgetting about my existence. I went on to talk about pets and told them about Becky and Mary. I feel like a master of fate, trying to introduce them to each other. Now we need to prepare dinner for Catsu's return and play with Yoru.

19:33. I completely forgot to tell you about the gifts I bought. We went to the pet store to buy new toys for my little angel. And while I was choosing them, Mia found a collection of lizard clothing! So, I decided to dress up Yuna, Lily and Coco in the same outfits. We spent the rest of the day running around clothing stores looking for suitable items. It was fun.

21:51. Catsu came back late again and looked exhausted, so after dinner I sent him home to rest. Because we have not yet passed the compatibility test and have not received approval to live together from the system, my beloved can not spend the night in my apartment. Also, we can't be alone for more than 5 hours without interruptions. This rule applies to all people except family members, and is necessary to preserve each person's personal space. And that's the only reason I want to marry Catsu. I just want to be close to him all the time and I know that this desire is mutual.

22:47. Now I will repeat the text for the presentation and go to bed. Still, it is better to stick to the regime.

Good night, Diary.

Day 16.

Hello, Diary.

Today is Friday, June 30, 2073.

On the street +23, Sunny

10:26. Good morning. Recently, I received an official invitation to the anniversary from Yuna and Lilia, which will begin at their home at 17: 00. It turns out they moved into a new apartment without telling me. Yuna doesn't usually hide such happy news from me. I need to talk to Catsu. I want him to be with me on this holiday.

13:47. We agreed to meet and discuss everything during the lunch break, which starts at 15: 00. His job is not far from my EOPQ, so he promised to accompany me. I'm going to make some sandwiches so that Catsu can have an afternoon snack at work, and I'm going to our cafe. This time I will clearly follow the Navigator's instructions and not get lost (probably).

15:37. Catsu works as a logic teacher at the sign system management Department, so we often saw each other during the lunch break. As a responsible teacher, he helps his students with their final papers, because of this; he will not be able to go with me tomorrow. Am I allowed to be jealous of Catsu's colleagues and students, with whom He spends more time than with me?

20: 49. The rehearsal was delayed until late in the evening, as we received a lot of advice from teachers, and Nuna decided to edit the text and presentation immediately, so as not to delay it.

21:31. I'm tired, but after I've done my job, I can relax and soak in the bathroom.

23:45. I wanted to say good night to Catsu, but I ended up dragging our conversation out for an hour, which is what always happens. Love him.

See you tomorrow, Diary.

class="book">Day 17.Good morning, Diary.

Today is July 1, 2073, Saturday.

On the street +24, Sunny.

09:21. I decided to do a general cleaning and a little rearrangement. I want to move my workplace to the living room to increase the free space in the bedroom. Maybe I just got used to the big rooms while I was lying in the center, and Yoru not a baby anymore, and she needs her own quiet corner, and then I want to meet Catsu, because we won't be able to see each other again today. He will train again. Not even on weekends, but I'm finally going to see Sammy and the other classmates.

But stop dreaming, it's time to start cleaning.

13: 46. I wanted to make a small rearrangement, and, in the end, I disassemble the second Cabinet. And why does this always happen?

15: 03. Once again, I forgot about time, being carried away by looking at photos in albums. One day I'll definitely lock them in a drawer and put them on the farthest shelf. I need to warn Catsu that I'm late.

16:39. Why does time pass so quickly when you spend it with a dear person? Especially if that person cares more about you than you do about yourself. He also gave Catsu a small gift for Yuna and Lilia. When does he do everything?

And now I'm.... Yes, Yes, I'm late again! I hope the people aren't upset about this.

22:51. The anniversary was marked successfully. The party started in Yuna and Lily's apartment (they even set up a separate room for Coco). All the guests gave gifts and sat down in the living room, where we talked for a long time about the past, present and future. Lily also revealed the secret of their Gecko's name. She was named after the actor Norma Coco, and the name of this actor was chosen because of me. After our long conversation, the guys offered a snack, and we went in search of a cafe. During this walk, Sammy offered to take a boat ride, and we all trooped to the Central River. But we arrived too late, and the last ship was already returning. Lily said that she did not want to miss this moment (the sun was beginning to go below the horizon), and suggested that we go to the beach to take some photos. Of course, it didn't end with photos alone. In the end, we were all completely soaked, but we had a lot of fun. Then everyone decided to go home, so as not to get sick.

Now I sit in bed under a blanket with a Cup of tea and enjoy life. I will repeat the text for certification and go to bed.

Good night, Diary.

Day 18.

Hello, Diary.

Today is July 2, 2073, Sunday.

On the street +22, windy.

14:41. I'm going on a date with Catsu. I need to tell him about my evening's adventures. Then Nuna called everyone to her house for a dress rehearsal. I hope we really will be preparing, and not like last time, teasing monkeys with bananas in the zoo.

19:33. Can you ask, Norma, why you ended up on the other side of town chasing a poodle? To be honest, I can't answer this question with complete confidence myself.

Our rehearsal, as usual, smoothly flowed into a card game on desire. As unsurpassed leaders, Nuna and I beat a couple of our less fortunate classmates, which means we made a wish for them. Ruby and Nick were supposed to take the dog from the kennel. Then a series of accidents, and here I am running after a poodle for 4 blocks. I think I'll sign up for the gym tomorrow, or start playing volleyball with Catsu. Because, after this run, I still can't get out of bed to change into my home clothes.

21:04. Today he returned from work much earlier, so we decided to arrange a home tournament for the game “Scrabble”. It was a confrontation between two geniuses, a cold tactician and an emotional book lover. But by the end, our exciting battle of mind and feelings had turned into a giveaway, and we decided to play in virtual reality, because there you can be on the same team. After that, we had dinner, and Catsu went to his house. Now I'm choosing clothes for tomorrow's final presentation, then I'll repeat the text 10 times again and go to bed with a calm (or not so) soul.

Good night, Diary.

* Note: *

– 02: 34. Nick called and said that the poodle was safe, well, and sleeping peacefully in the new house. By the way, his name is now Hunten. —

Day 19.

Hello, Diary.

Today is Monday, July 3, 2073.

On the street +22, Sunny.

05:31. I can't sleep very well because of the excitement. I think I'd better take a walk now. Maybe I'll go over to cat's and make him Breakfast and a snack for work. He came home late last night, maybe even missed dinner. I'm worried about the health of the Catsu. I don't want him to have to stay in the hospital for lack of weight.

05:52. We recently approved each other's access to our apartments, so I didn't even have to Wake him up. Nothing has changed here, which is not surprising. At home, he is only 10 hours a day, most of which he sleeps. Well, I think I'll make his favorite beef ramen.

06:12. I'd never noticed it before, but Catsu was used to sleeping with his arm around a pillow. It looks cute, so I took a couple of photos as a keepsake. On my next birthday, I'll give him a stuffed toy so that he'll remember me before going to bed. Soon we will fall asleep in each other's arms.

First, you need to pass a group project and get a certificate of full professional qualification.

09:36. Catsu woke up at 07: 00 and was surprised by my presence (the surprise was successful). Now our score is 33: 30, one day I will definitely overtake it.

At Breakfast, I told him my part of the final speech, and he praised me. Catsu is always kind to me, so lately I've wanted to see him angry or resentful of me. Now, after seeing Catsu to work, I walk around the city to quickly stabilize my spatial thinking.

You need to go to your parents' house and at least dust it. Nora said she cleans it every week, but since I've already checked out, it's worth taking turns.

09:53. I have reached the Park, I don't remember that it was there at all, but I feel a familiar warmth, joy and calmness here, especially when I look at the house, who’s Windows overlook the Park. Did the person who caused me to delete part of my memory live here? I've been thinking too much lately, my head is starting to hurt again. I want to see Him and I miss him. No, I shouldn't meet this man. I don't have to think about It. I don't know Him at all now. My hands are shaking. I'm going to cry in front of His window.

I must run home. I must have dressed too lightly and caught a cold; I have a fever or a fever. I'll take a sedative and everything will be fine. It's from overwork. Yes, that's why.

14:17. After I got home, I took my medicine and decided to lie down, but I didn't notice how I fell asleep. If it hadn't been for Nuna's call, I would have overslept the certification. Now I'm going to my apartment to put on the clothes I prepared yesterday and put my appearance in order. The final presentation will start at 16: 00.

14: 32. I forgot to take an antidepressant, which may have made me feel sick.

15:29. Her hair was done, things wearing, the text learned, the cat is stroked, the happy coin in the bag. I'm definitely ready now.

Wish me luck.

17: 46. Three groups successfully passed the final certification in web design.

Darina Tone, Nick lees, Ruby Ren and Norma Mads have received certificates of full professional qualification, and from August 2073 they will work at Bonhomme in their specialty – web design. Finally, we graduated from the EOPQ! I'm thrilled. This event should be fully celebrated and continued for the next week.

04:32. Today we went to the recreation center, where we ordered a course of complete relaxation, which included a swimming pool, sauna, massage, manicure, hairdresser, facial cleansing and much more. During this time, we discussed all the details of our future trip to the ocean. Ruby also tortured Nuna for a long time to tell her about her companion, a place for which she immediately reserved, but could not find out anything. Darina is proud and stubborn, especially if nick and Ruby are talking to her. But it is precisely because of these qualities that she is the leader of our group.

After all the procedures, we planned to walk along the embankment. But Nick decided everything for us. So the next half an hour, we spent on the road to the lake Upkan where you can ride a wake board.

The sensations that I experienced after 1 lap are difficult to describe in words, especially the moments of flying over water, when the breath and pulse just stop, and everything around slows down for a couple of seconds. After 2 hours of continuous being on the Board, we were all exhausted, and decided to go home. It was fun, even though it was the second time I'd come home in wet clothes, and the surprises weren't going to end there.

I had Yoru, dinner, and Catsu waiting for me at home. Well, the surprise was successful; the score is 34: 30. Apparently, my efforts to circumvent it are pointless. After dinner, I told Catsu about my plans for the next week, because he would have to use one of the 10 free weeks to relax with us. Next, I would tell him about my experiences, and he would calm me down, then Catsu would say a joke and change the subject, which happened several times. I like the atmosphere it creates around me. Next to him, I feel like a necessary and valuable person.

Day 20.

Hello, Diary.

Today is July 4, 2073, Tuesday.

On the street +21, cloudy.

12:37. I was so tired from yesterday that I fell asleep to Catsu's calm voice, and He just put me to bed and sat next to me until our 5 hours were up. He even left a small note in which he once again congratulated me on the end of the criminal procedure code. I'll put it in our album together.

I want to talk to my niece and set up a meeting where I can introduce her to Mia.

16:11. I picked up my motorcycle from the paid parking lot and return to the world of extreme driving. Down with boring everyday life!

18: 29. Tomorrow at 15:00, the long-awaited meeting of Mia and Mary will take place. They'll get along.

19: 28. Yuna and Lily also successfully defended their project and decided to arrange a small tour of nature reserves with Coco. I hope it doesn't stay in the wild. And Catsu invited me for an evening walk.

21:42. Toffy has written a new book, the Wheel of fate, during my absence, so I'm sure I won't be able to sleep until I've read it in full. Follow the work of your favorite author-the duty of every fan.

03:38. It described the life of a traveler who collected stories of fate in order to deduce the perfect formula for happiness. The work also showed the difference between eras, but emphasized that at any time people asked the same questions and set similar goals.

Even with the dawn of technology, the emergence of a system that provides life, the most prosperous possible, we are still not enough. People still look for their lost happiness, in entertainment, money, prestige and popularity. But they find it in the warm embrace of a loved one. It's because of these ideas that I like Toffy.

Now I need to sleep.

Good night, Diary.

Day 21.

Hello, Diary.

Today is Wednesday, July 5, 2073.

On the street +22, windy.

13:21. I'm making ham rolls for Catsu, and then I'll meet Mary, and we'll go to Mia's.

17: 24. The Acquaintance was so successful that now, feeling like a third extra in this company, I decided to leave them alone. Mary and Mia quickly found a common language, as if they were best friends who met after a long separation. It turned out that they go to the same school, but they didn't see each other because they are in different classes and at different levels. I think that now Mary's studies will no longer be a boring routine.

And now I'm going to the car Park, I need to remind the instructor of my existence.

19: 31. Someone bought my favorite car, sadly. There will be races soon, but the application I submitted was rejected due to my health condition.

20:52. I've cleaned up the gallery, and tomorrow I'll send the pictures I like to print. I'm out of albums, so I need to go shopping, maybe I'll bring Lava along.

21:43. Yuna and Lily send many photos, they were able to get to the national Park of endangered species, the entrance to which is controlled by the natural balance stabilization system. I am glad that my friends are doing what they love together, while educating society.

22:18. I wanted to relax in the bathroom, but while I was getting water, Yoru took a bath with me. She loves water, so I have Spa treatments with my little angel.

23:02. I decided to review my photo albums. I am glad that I did not give up this activity, because now I can pleasantly immerse myself in the past, wrapped in a warm blanket and drinking freshly squeezed juice.

23:47. I found an album with classmates where there is one person I don't remember at all. I'll ask Yuna who it is.

And that's it.

Good night, Diary.

Day 22.

Hello, Diary.

Today is July 7, 2073, Friday.

On the street +22, clear.

10:32. Nothing special happened yesterday, so I went for a walk with Catsu during lunch, picked up the printed photos, met Mary and Mia, and now they go to school together. Becky has been working hard, but the weeklong search for the children has so far yielded no results.

Today I want to draw a sunset on the embankment, where there is a beautiful view. Ruby also suggested going shopping to update her wardrobe for the trip.

18:52. Who bought 4 swimsuits? I bought four swimsuits. What for? I don't know. Hunten will stay with Ruby's parents for the duration of the trip. She said that her little brother is very fond of this poodle, and Hunten even rides it on his back. I'll leave Yoru with my sister. I think Becky will be happy to see her after a month of separation.

20:22. Mia suggested a few more books. I'll start with Richard Bach's “Illusion”.

02:12. Catsu invited me for an evening walk. I think we should go out more often after sunset. At night, the atmosphere changes thanks to bright neon signs and lanterns. An ordinary walk immediately becomes a small adventure that opens you to another side of the ordinary and quiet city where you have lived all your life. Next time, I will definitely bring my camera with me.

For today, this is all the news I wanted to write down.

Good night, Diary.

Day 23.

Good morning, Diary.

Today is July 8, 2073, Saturday.

On the street +23, cloudy.

10:26. It's finally the weekend, and I can meet Catsu again. But today is not the best weather for walking, so we decided to review our favorite movie “the cursed seal”.

And then I'll do a couple of web design jobs to earn money for my upcoming vacation.

15:36. Why can't every day be as peaceful? Watching a high-quality movie in the arms of Catsu will never cease to please me, and cooking together can never do without fun arguments and banter. I think these little things make life colorful and rich. Now the Catsu have gone home. I hope he doesn't catch a cold in the rain, because he didn't bring an umbrella.

16:43. I like the sound of the rain, the sound of heavy drops of water falling slowly from the clouds, like tears of longing and sadness. But the most important thing is that after the sun always comes out, and with it the rainbow that fills the world with colors. But I'm going back to the orders.

17:07. And, yet I was right, the rainbow did appear with the sun. I just need to go to the grocery store.

18:35. Lavender is now an assistant to the designer I told you about earlier. She was incredibly happy about it and invited me to celebrate. Rest is an integral part of the job, so I'm on my way.

21:09. There was an unexpected but pleasant acquaintance with Hakon Snor (designer). According to Lavender's description, I imagined him as a successful middle-aged family man with a collection of rare cars and expensive perfume. But how wrong I was! But now I understand exactly why Lava admires him. Hakon, a creative geek with a big heart. He is ready to share the positive with everyone who is in his field of vision. This is why his work has become popular and well known. She gradually changes next to him, becoming a more open, sociable and optimistic girl. That's what idols do to a person. This person will definitely take care of Lavender, and will not leave any time for boredom in her life.

21:27. Nick has just announced the disappearance of her brother Ruby, who was on holiday his friend. The organizers of this event reported that he simply disappeared. None of the guys who were nearby noticed anything unusual. This is terrible. You need to go to their home and support your friend, and her hubby is probably worried. Why is everything happening this way?

02:58. When I arrived, Ruby was already asleep, exhausted, and Nick was sitting next to Her. So I decided to cook dinner. Half an hour after that, Nuna arrived and helped me. During the course of the meal, he told me that they had been searching all day, and that his wife was in a fever. And I understand it perfectly. If anything had happened to Mary, I … I Don't want to think about it.

Then Nuna and I took care of our poor friend, changed her clothes, and put her to bed. Hunten watched us all the time, and when we left, he went to sleep at Ruby's feet. Meanwhile, Nick was alone with a bottle of wine in his office. How could this happen? I should take a sedative, or I won't be able to sleep.

Bye, Diary.

Day 24.

Hello, Diary.

Today is Sunday, July 9, 2073.

On the street +24, windy.

14:53. Catsu came running to me as soon as I told him the whole story of yesterday. He is worried about me, because the doctor said that excessive experiences can have a detrimental effect on my mental health, especially since it is still in the recovery stage.

But, strangely, I feel calm. Aware of the problem and the horror of what happened, I don't feel any excitement, stress or panic. Maybe it's the effect of antidepressants, but I don't want to become an insensitive robot, even if these emotions drive me crazy and move to a closed city.

After Breakfast, we took a short walk, but I don't remember what we talked about. Maybe we didn't talk at all. Catsu looked puzzled, even frightened. He must have been worried about Ruby and her little brother, too. Catsu took a week off, so we can spend more time together.

16:41. It's time to go to the monthly veterinary checkup for the Baby. I hope that the examination will show that her body condition is normal.

17:03. Fluffy angel is the healthiest inhabitant of my apartment, and this pleases.

Also, I recently talked to Nora about cleaning my parents' apartment one at a time, and I had the idea to turn my former room into a living room. I think my parents won't mind a little renovation. Nora approved of the idea.

The nurse also said that Mary was taking a mandatory aptitude test tomorrow. We need to talk to her before going to bed and make sure she falls asleep on time, otherwise she'll be preparing for the whole night, just like Him. Is this He again? Was I so obsessed with Him that nothing else had been in my head for the past 6 years?

They can't hide my medical records from me, so I know all the details of the memory deletion operation. But why didn't they delete all my memories of this person if they were sure that he caused my panic attacks, tantrums, and depression? What did the doctors actually remove? Wait; there are problems that are more serious right now. I need to visit some friends.

18:08. Ruby has gone to live with her parents, and they should be together now and support each other. Nick stayed at home with Hunten and threw himself into projects and orders, which is his way of distracting himself from bad thoughts.

“Work takes all the energy and time, so there is simply no place for sadness in my life,” he often said. So I just made some food and convinced the Nick to eat. Then I cleaned their apartment a little, walked and fed Hakon, and went back to my house. I want to read now, and then put Mary to bed.

Good night, Diary.

Day 25.

Hello, Diary.

Today is Monday, July 10, 2073.

On the street +25, clear.

09: 26. Today you need to come home to your parents and disassemble the Cabinet. There are many of my notebooks from school and my first year in the EOPQ. Half of my photo album collection is still there. I think I'll make hanging shelves for them. First you need to have Breakfast.

10:47. The search for Ruby's brother has reached a dead end, this case was attributed to the number of serial thefts, which means that more than 120 children have already been kidnapped around the world.

How can you steal so many children and go unnoticed? Now each person's identity chip has beacons that the system can use to track their movement. This means that no one can enter anywhere unnoticed, such as a warehouse or a closed room where some children were found.

There are only 2 logical explanations for this:

1. The offender has removed your chip. In this situation, it can be located at any point without control. But at this time, the beacon continues to send a signal that counts down the time of the stationary state (which can save lives in the event of fainting or heart attack, especially if the person has a predisposition to this).

Thus, a stationary chip triggers an emergency.

So, in order not to arouse suspicion, the tracker must constantly move. Therefore, the system scans the movement of all chips at the time of the crime, and if 2 beacons are at close range, their owners are immediately included in the number of suspects.

Then surveillance cameras check these close movements. And if one of the suspects is alone at this time, it becomes an accomplice, and the owner of the second chip is a criminal.

This entire calculation process is performed automatically in 5 minutes.

But abductions of children are still ongoing. This means that no errors were found in the movement of citizens.

Therefore, only the second option remains.

2. Hacking the system. And this scares me the most, because in this case, every person working in the field of ensuring the safe life of citizens becomes a suspect.

The code is updated every week, and due to current circumstances, probably every day.

Then, the circle of suspects can be narrowed down to professional security code processing workers. But they pass a memory scan every time they start working on the system.

I hope Ruby and her family get professional psychological support.

13:47. After sorting through the rack, I noticed a lot of school assignments. It turns out that I created very interesting project works on visualization of feelings (I think to turn some ideas into full-fledged working sites and put them up for sale).

14:06. I found a written diary, but I don't remember keeping it, it looks like it was meant to follow Him.

I don't think this is the only part, but rather the second, and maybe the third. Here you can see the entire daily routine of that person, all his tastes and preferences. There is everything here except the shortcomings of this mysterious person. Like an angel in the flesh. Where is He now? Did he realize that His life was being watched? Maybe He found out about it and rejected me. What happened? Even if I ask Yuna or Sammy, they won't answer. I'll look for the rest of the diary.

14:42. I found three more. At the end of the last part was the inscription: “For convenience, I'm switching to the electronic version of the diary.” Now it's clear where I got the habit with happy passwords. And how many years did my dependence on Him last? We need to take out the trash and get out of here. Rather.

15:31. Mary said that this year showed the result of MPAT immediately, and she moved to the seventh stage, so the sister is going to have a holiday and celebrate it. And I should take my mind off the nagging thoughts of the past.

19: 24. Mary invited Mia, and we went to the water center as a friendly group of women for a theatrical performance of the musical “Dancing under the moon”. After that, we swam in pools and argued over who could ride more slides. Because of the age limit, I was in a winning position. But Mary and Mia beat me on a pair of roller coasters, which were 12 or more. Teamwork was better than privilege. The water takes a lot of energy, so we swam into the cafe. In this center, everything is in the water. There is a section for group battles and slot machines, even a water sports hall and a cinema where you can watch a movie on the big screen while in the Jacuzzi. Let's go over here with Catsu and see something in the shared bath. By the way, now Mia and Mary are in the same class and will definitely not break up for the next 5 years.

19:53. Catsu asked me out on a date at a rooftop cafe I'd wanted to go to since it opened last year. And how does he even know what I want when I never tell him? It's funny if Catsu just guessed right.

02:51. The sunset was especially beautiful, bright red, and this time I took my camera with me. Another memory in the piggy Bank. The best time for summer walks is in the late evening, when the midday heat subsides and a pleasant warm breeze remains. At such times, I remember moments together in the country house, when my grandfather was with us.

We went together to the lakeshore, to the forest for mushrooms or berries, and he told a lot of stories from his youth, when there were no systems, and a single language was just being introduced. My grandfather once told me that after arguing with his best friend, he went to College to become a journalist, and this turned out to be his vocation. Maybe this friend gave him a collection of quotes. I miss him, but I try not to be sad about it. My grandfather never liked tears.

One day, Nora and I stayed at their house for a week, and I seriously injured my hand when I fell off a carousel. Meanwhile, my grandfather was running around in a panic because I was crying incessantly, saying, “Please, Norma, don't cry. I'm scared. I don't know how to calm crying people!” – I was surprised by this reaction of an adult and, forgetting about my pain, I began to laugh and calm my grandfather. It was only after his death that I realized it was a special psychological tactic. We need to go to the rebirth grove this week and plant forget-me-nots next to his tree.

And now it's time to return to reality.

After a small photo shoot, Catsu and I ate and went for a walk around the city. I told him about my plans to renovate my parents' house, and he said he would help with that, and Nora and Damon would do their part. At least, the purchase of paint for the walls and ceiling on them, and I design the future living room.

I'll think about it tomorrow.

Good night, Diary.

Day 26.

Good morning, Diary.

Today is July 11, 2073, Tuesday.

The temperature outside is +26 and Sunny.

10:31. Sleep mode is completely disrupted, but this is not the main problem now. I want to work out a plan for future repairs to complete it in a week.

14:27. Sammy is going on a regional tour with his band for 2 weeks and will be back for his birthday. I remember his first concert in front of a hundred fans. It was a small but cozy performance where Sammy was the main character.

He prepared for this for six months, wrote a separate album, ordered costumes, completely thought out the party after the concert and prepared contests and gifts for fans. But Sammy could not decide for a long time and constantly postponed the performance. So during a friendly get-together, I offered to play cards on desire. It wasn't exactly the best concert from a technical point of view (at some point the speakers stopped working at all), but this performance was the most important in Sammy's work. Now it gathers several thousand listeners at a time and is proud of it.

Memories came flooding back because I found the poster I was drawing for the first concert. I'll give it to Sammy for his birthday. He likes to collect memorabilia like the one I do photos.

18:53. We did the General cleaning of my parents' apartment much faster than I had planned. So tomorrow, we can paint the walls. I decided that they will be warm colors, and the furniture in the room is cold. Nora approved of my design, so now she's going to the hardware store with Damon. I think Catsu and I will join them after the meal.

20:45. Why are shopping trips so tedious? We spent an hour choosing the right shade of paint. I think I can tell brick from red and terracotta in a couple of seconds. Should I take a week off as a consultant to take a break from web design?

21: 23. The little black angel stretched out so nicely, so I took a picture of her. I will send photos of this cute face to all my friends, because everyone is ready to admire this miracle, and if not, then I am not going to communicate with such people.

21:47. We started the competition again with charming photos of our Pets with Mary. This time she was able to beat me. But I won't let it happen again.

22:07. I'm going to take a bath, listen to an audiobook, and go to bed. You need to return the mode (try to return it).

See you tomorrow, Diary.

Day 27.

Hello, Diary.

Today is July 13, 2073, Thursday.

On the street +27, cloudy.

15:24. I finally gathered my thoughts and strength to write down yesterday's events.

While Catsu and I were painting the walls and fooling around, Becky was helping the investigation as usual. And this time she was closer to the criminals than ever before. For this intimacy, Becky paid with her life. I learned the whole story from Nora that night and went straight to their house, taking Yoru with me. And already on the spot, I learned all the details of what happened from the following police report:

“At 12:00, the search for missing children began.

At 1:40 p.m., Becky picked up the trail.

At 14:15, Becky stopped following my commands and disappeared from view. The search team began to follow the tracker implanted in her chip.

At 14:20, we heard barking from the nearest furniture warehouse.

At 14:23, the missing girl and Becky were found in a fit of rage. Following the instructions, I gave the dog an injection for euthanasia.

At 14:25, a group of researchers and an ambulance were called. No injuries were found on the child, but her memories were “stolen” like those of the other victims.

At 14:35, a full scan of Becky's body was performed. The cause of rabies was a serum containing synthetic epinephrine, which was injected into Becky at approximately 14: 21. Also, a blood sample of the perpetrator was found on Becky's teeth, which became the main lead.

26-th the search Department expresses its gratitude to Becky and Mary Lanford for their assistance to the investigation and offers compensation for the psychological trauma of losing a pet.

To discuss the details, please contact the above address. We are always ready to support you.

Sincerely, Ron Thompson”

Mary locked herself in her room and didn't want to see anyone, but I was able to persuade her to walk with me. We went to a flower shop on the way, because we both knew where we were going. I took forget-me-nots for my grandfather, and Mary took black roses.

We walked in silence until we reached the grove of rebirth. And there I decided to leave Mary alone with the maple tree, and I went to the chestnut tree – the tree of my grandfather's rebirth. I told him about my life, my plans, the surrounding people, my dreams come true as I planted forget-me-nots. We used to gather chestnuts together with Nora and my grandfather, and then make sweets out of them. You need to prepare these sweets and give them to your grandmother, because she loves homemade sweets.

After that, I went to the maple tree and stood next to Mary, who was quietly shedding big tears drop by drop. It was getting dark outside, and I suggested that Mary stay with me, because it would take us an hour to get to her house. So, we had a little late-night party with a movie and a snack of sweets and soda. When I told my sister that Mary was staying the night, she was a little happy. Then she sent me a video of Him running around the house, calling for Becky, trying to find her. After that, I couldn't contain my emotions and called Catsu. By this time, Mary was asleep.

At 10:52 this morning, I asked Catsu to take Mary home and bring the Baby back. For the rest of the time, he took care of me. To distract myself a little, I offered to stop by a furniture store and buy it for the future living room. All this time I felt lost.

Now I write everything down in my parents' house on the comfortable emerald sofa opposite the shelves with my photo albums. I'll stay here because I don't have the energy to go back.

18:32. I had a headache, and there were no more painkillers or sedatives left, so I went to the pharmacy, but I ended up sitting in the Park for a few hours. Why do I feel better here, because I don't remember anything? I have to go to the drugstore and go home another way, or I'll be here for a long time again.

18:41. It was raining outside, and I was glad I had a clear umbrella with me; otherwise, I would have been soaking wet.

19:38. When I got home, I took my medicine and decided to finish decorating the bookcase. It turned out that in our home library there are many interesting works that I planned to read. That's what I'll do before I go to bed.

21:43. Catsu is too much worried about me. He doesn't leave me alone even in an empty apartment, constantly asking about my health in a blog, or calling every half hour.

This concern is very pleasant to me, but I don't want to make him worry. I have to lie to say that everything is fine. We love each other too much to hurt with the truth. And it builds a wall between us.

23:41. I watched a live broadcast from Sammy's concert and started dancing, immersed in this atmosphere of collective mayhem to the songs of my favorite artist. But the blog post brought me back to reality, and the neighbors did not have time to complain about the violation of public peace.

I think it's really time for me to go to bed.

Good night, Diary.

Day 28.

Hello, Diary.

Today is July 15, 2073, Saturday.

On the street +24, windy.

14: 32. At 16:00, the graduation ceremony will begin in our EOPQ. I could have missed it, but Lavender insisted on my presence.

Yesterday passed me by. There is no desire to do anything, so now you need to do something, for example, choose clothes, style your hair and eat Breakfast prepared by Catsu. Why does he continue to take care of me even when I don't show emotion or feelings?

I can never be as worried about anyone without getting something in return. I need a response and emotions. My love will never be selfless, and it makes me feel very sorry for Catsu. He deserves more. I'll apologize to him the next time we meet.

15:43. I'm late, again.

03:07. He proposed to me at the prom. I've been waiting for this and I'm very happy that we will be taking a compatibility test tomorrow. But at the same time, I feel like the meanest person who plays with other people's destinies. And Catsu was so happy to hear me say yes.

03: 13. Everything will be fine. Tomorrow we will be married and can be together for an unlimited amount of time. There were just a lot of surprises that shook the psyche. The course of antidepressants is not finished, which means that I may still be concerned about emotional instability. I just wind myself up; I should just relax and go to bed.

03:31. I need to sleep.

04:06. Sleep.

See you tomorrow, Diary.

Day 29.

Hello, Diary.

Today is July 16, 2073, Sunday.

It's +25 outside, cloudy.

09:31. This day will be remembered for the rest of my life, as Catsu and I will become one family, and I still can't believe it. Now we will be even happier, and this feeling will grow with each day spent together. But, because of the uncertain future, I'm scared. Then I'll have a hectic move, a free week alone with Catsu, and go to work. And we will survive all this together.

12:41. All my friends seem to have woken up, as if on a birthday, and wish me good luck and a positive test result. It's nice. Although I do not like that, our communication with them lasts from holiday to holiday and consists in mutual congratulations. Maybe one day I'll have the strength to tell them and stop this pointless circus. Now my favorite makeup artists, hairdressers and fashion designers, whom I trust completely, will come to visit me – my friends.

15:39. I do not agree to live without the extraordinary personalities who are ready to turn the world upside down every minute. Without them, my life would be boring and monotonous nonsense. I can't thank them enough, so I'll repay them with the absolute trust they've earned over the years. And even my dear friends support and comfort me just by their presence. I'm ready for the first step into the unknown.

Wish me luck.

Day 30.

Hello, Diary.

Today is Monday, July 17, 2073.

On the street + 22, clear.

04:21. I had a dream:

Warm summer. I was going to go to the Park to spend some time alone with my sketchbook, pencil, and my thoughts.

It was July 23, 2066, 13: 47. I went out of the house and looked at the Windows of the surrounding houses, making up stories for the residents of these apartments.

For example, in a room with purple curtains and plush toys on the windowsill lived a single girl of 27 years who wanted a child, but after being rejected by the system responsible for the happiness of children, was disappointed in her husband and filed for divorce. At the moment, she works part-time as an organizer of children's matinees.

Writing such stories, I reached the Park and, sitting opposite a small bridge over a pond, began to draw.

After a while, I noticed Him.

Dark curly hair, gray eyes, average height, nothing special about Him, but I couldn't take my eyes off him. Then I drew a picture of Him.

He sat on a bench not far from me and read a book, sometimes washing it down with coffee from a convenience store nearby. And I made the first note: “He's reading one Hundred years of solitude, and he's not dressed for the weather. Perhaps He has health problems, or he is afraid of catching a cold. I want to know His name.”

After that, I drew three more portraits. There could have been a lot more if He hadn't left. Then a sequel appeared in my notes: “He lives in apartment 42, 7th entrance.”

After that, I Packed up my things and left, feeling happy and inspired, as if I had met a famous actor.

When I got home, I opened an empty notebook and wrote: “Day 1 …”, then abruptly woke up.

It wasn't a dream. This can't be a normal dream. It's He, it's definitely He. But why? Why did I see this? I had my memories of Him removed. I shouldn't have seen it. Even with the stress of yesterday's poor test result, I couldn't see it. Why didn't I just jump off that bridge like I did before? I'll go to the hospital.

10:14. Deceive me. My doctor told me everything about the operation. My memory was blocked, not deleted. And because of this, after a stressful situation, I dreamed of our first meeting.

The doctor said that I would completely unlock my memory within this year if there were no more unexpected shocks in my life, and prescribed stronger sedatives. But if their effect is too weak, I will go to a rehabilitation center again, but not for 1 month.

After this statement, I asked why my memories can't just be deleted. And the doctor asked: “Norma, are you ready to give up your life? After deleting these memories, you will become a different person, and you will have to get to know everyone again. Are you sure that your friends will continue to communicate with you if you change?” After that, I left his office and went to get more antidepressants.

I am not ready to give up the reality I am in now, even if I have to endure headaches, insomnia, apathy and a sense of loss. Everything will be all right. In 7 days, Catsu and I will take a second test, and the system will approve our relationship. I just need to wait out this week, get as far away as possible so that Catsu doesn't have a chance to understand how bad I feel.

15:36. I talked to Nora about everything that had happened, and she promised to give me the best possible week in which I wouldn't have a chance to feel bored or sad for a minute. And Mary needs a change of scenery, too. So tomorrow we will go with our family to Kontion – a resort town near the volcano. There are many hot springs and unique species of animals that can only be found in those parts, so now I will pack my suitcase. The main thing is not to forget the camera.

20:57. I told Yuna what had happened and she came to my house in half an hour with a mountain of weaknesses. Yuna knows how to cheer me up. We went from club to club, dancing with different people. Then they joined some group of students who were playing a bottle game on desire.

We were definitely not bored. Especially when the Young girl who lost the game and because of this drank wine in one gulp, came Lily. Before me, a real family drama unfolded, after which I helped carry a friend who had been working up and returned to my room.

Tomorrow the train leaves at 09: 35, so I need to complete my preparations and go to bed as soon as possible.

Good night, Diary.

Day 31.

Hello, Diary.

Today is July 18, 2073, Tuesday.

On the street +25, Sunny.

11:42. I was exhausted from the trip yesterday, so I didn't write anything down. This needs to be fixed.

Before leaving, I met with Catsu, and we had the most serious conversation of all time in the relationship. I told him about my feelings about our future.

If we don't pass the compatibility test a second time, the hope of a happy life together will disappear forever. And I'm afraid it will break me completely.

Then the Catsu said: “You need to calm down, Norma. So rest in Kontion, and then we'll talk again. If your opinion does not change, we will not take the test again. Your health is more important now. And after recovery, we can safely return to this.”

I didn't have the strength to tell him about restoring my memories. I'm afraid of losing him, afraid of being alone again. I'm hurting Catsu too much, but He's still there for me.

Now I have a whole week to think about my future and past, and make a choice in the present. And now we are going to a rented house, which is located in a national Park. That's where we'll live for the rest of our trip.

14:31. I want to stay here forever. I've never seen a house like this before. You can definitely survive a nuclear war in it, and I will definitely find the entrance to the bunker, because I am sure that it is here.

I'm enjoying my double bed, which I won back in a serious fight with Mary. I think she'll try her luck again tonight, so I won't have a chance to relax.

I'll sort things out, and then we'll go on a picnic with the whole family. Eating a vegetable salad in nature, what could be better? I hope the animals will be sociable and show themselves in all their glory.

17:58. I was inspired. There is a small waterfall and a cave in this national Park, so tomorrow I will definitely take a long walk with my camera while Nora and the others bask in the sanatorium that I refused. Because I want to be alone with myself, so I can think.

23:36. I'm staying in the Park and it's not up for discussion. On the site, you will be able to find a hot spring under the open sky.

But, the most interesting thing started here after water treatments. Because, as I'd expected, Mary hadn't given up hope of taking my big, soft bed. So, after leaving the source 10 minutes earlier, she went into my room and barricaded the door with a chest of drawers.

Of course, I didn't think my niece was capable of such a thing, but just in case, I took the key to the door on the balcony of my room with me. Now you should take the ladder, and, returning to their territory, expel the invader. The plan is ready, it remains to implement it.

Good luck to me.

*Note: *

– July 21, 05: 12. In the end, fighting for the bed, we fell asleep with our arms around each other. —

Day 32.

Good morning, Diary.

Today is Wednesday, July 19, 2073.

On the street +26, cloudy.

05:43. The morning dew and coolness, the singing of birds, the dawn breaking through the trees – an atmosphere that takes you far away from everyday problems. I want to stop this moment, but the thought flashes through my head: “what if it gets better?” – And you continue to enjoy the warm tea, sinking deeper into yourself.

An unforgettable feeling of harmony and tranquility.

07:36. I made Breakfast for everyone, because they won't be able to taste the food I made for the next 3 days. And I haven't eaten pancakes in a long time.

08:38. Now I'm alone in this house for a few days. During this time, I need to find a bunker, a secret room, a wine cellar, and a portal to the world of fantastic animals. Otherwise, it is impossible to explain the existence of all the animals that live only here.

It is a pity that I will not be able to take the flying squirrel. I fell in love with her from the moment she flew to my shoulder and sat there. If I hadn't put her in a tree, she would have come with me to the house and then to the city. I hope I'll see her on the walk.

09:42. In all news feeds this article:

“Today at 09: 03 all the accused in the case of missing children were arrested. The organizer of the kidnappings is Gordon Mel, the owner of a large company “VL” for the production of virtual worlds.

He used the memories of children for a new project that “can immerse the user in childhood and fill his life with carefree memories of forgotten years of youth.”

This project has been on sale for a month, and users noted as a plus full immersion in the world and the absolute realism of feelings and emotions received during the game.

The company's operations have been stopped and its products are being checked.

All the missing children were found and returned to their parents. »

This news made me happy, but I still can't understand how this company was able to organize mass kidnappings of children in all corners of the world. Therefore, I will now look for additional information, which will be easy to find, since the materials of all solved criminal cases are in the public domain.

10:11. It turns out that the system was actually hacked on a daily basis, by a former employee of the security team who was put under arrest because of the distribution of the access code.

VL has bribed employees who control restricted cells for prisoners. Thanks to this, a former employee gained access to the security system and hacked it. This made it possible to control the input of signals from beacons to the system. That's why children disappeared without a trace.

The kidnappings could have gone on for a long time if it hadn't been for Becky. A pity is not a single mention of a brave dog who sacrificed his life for a blood sample. Thank You, Becky.

And now it's time to move forward in search of beautiful landscapes in the collection.

12:37. My little friend has flown back to me. I decided to call it Dorobo, which means thief, because this flying squirrel stole my heart and doesn't want it back. But I don't mind, to be honest.

13:12. I said something about the scenery, forget about it. Today only, take pictures of the Dorobo.

15:41. Even in the depths of the forest, it's getting hot, so I'll go home. I have long had my eye on the lonely Jacuzzi that is looking forward to my return. But I'll save the Spa treatments for the evening, because I want to go to the city to buy food for a themed dinner.

19:26. I met Rowley! I was surprised when I was addressed by name by a tanned, strong-built girl with short hair and a baby in her arms. But, after a moment of stupor, a whole wave of positive emotions followed.

We bumped into each other in the store, and then Rowley invited me over. On the way, we discussed our last conversation and concluded that both of us had succumbed to emotions and did not want to listen and understand each other.

It turned out that after graduating from high school, Rowley became pregnant (the system approved her and Emet as parents), and they moved to this city, since there was a UPC in Emet's specialty.

After Emelie was born, the system enrolled Rowley in a remote training program as a journalist. And now she works on regional news feed. So I told her the whole story about Becky, and Rowley was so interested in it that she promised to interview Mary and tell the world about the real hero. Then I told her about my life over the past 5 years.

Rowley wanted to contact me after graduation, but when she saw that I had blocked her access to my blog and phone number, she decided to forget about me. But it's a small world, and I'm glad we can sit together again at the same table, drinking lemonade on a hot evening, and laughing at our old mistakes. We're older now, but she's still the Jolly, chatty, energetic Rowley. My Rowley. We agreed to meet tomorrow and take a walk around the city.

By the way, I want to tell you a little about Emelie, although this name completely characterizes her. It seems as if she has absorbed all the qualities of her parents. Modest and silent, like Emet, but stubborn and selfish, like Rowley. This is a wonderful child, but with a complex character.

I'll give her a remote control car tomorrow. If she really were Emet's daughter, she would appreciate it. After our long dialogue, I returned home. No longer possible to postpone the thought of the surgery, Catsu and my future.

19:34. If I agree to delete my memories, can I truly love Catsu? Give me hope for this, and I will give up the past for it.

19:52. It was as if I had found God in His face, and I was being forced to become an atheist. Because of this, I start to distance myself from people who don't understand my faith. Who is He? What's so special about It? Norma, I don't understand what you need.

20:34. It hurts, those feelings again. I miss Him, I want to see Him. Back to me. I beg. You're all I need to be happy.

21:02. Why these pills don't help. I don't want to see Him. Why is He looking at me? I'm scared, I'm scared. Why was I alone with Him again?

I need to hide in a secret room behind a wardrobe, so that He will never find me, otherwise he will kill me, stab me with a knife, or push me off the balcony, or drown me in a spring. I don't want to die.

Day 33.

Hello, Diary.

Today is July 20, 2073, Thursday.

On the street +24, cloudy.

10:41. I woke up in the hospital and my shoulder was very sore. Apparently, I lost consciousness, and the life support system received a signal from my stationary beacon. The strange thing is that I don't remember last night at all, so I'm going to reread my diary to find out what happened.

11:12. Apparently, yesterday I had hallucinations due to the side effect of new antidepressants, in which my dreams and reality combined in His image. We need to talk about this with the doctor during the examination.

11:38. The doctor said that such a reaction is possible only from exceeding the prescribed dose. Perhaps because of my headache, I took more than one pill yesterday. My condition has stabilized after the IVs, but I still shouldn't be alone. Maybe I'll ask a friend to sleep with me.

11:52. We agreed to meet at 16: 00, before that time I need to put the house in order.

13:06. I reached out as I tried to move the rack.

20:43. This time I was wrong. Emelie didn't appreciate my gift, but Emet was overjoyed and played with it all the time. Now there is no trace of his modesty, I think it was because of his profession as a programmer, because he has to communicate with many customers. We left Emily with a friend and went to the movie theater. This time the movie was in the genre of fiction. Now I want to tell its story:

The film began with a violent scene of a child being beaten by his father, who is under the influence of drugs.

Later, as a teenager, this child gave interviews, and we learned that his father sold him for experiments.

After that, we were shown this boy in a camp where there were 30 children. And they explained the essence of the first part of the military experience, the purpose of which is to artificially create ideal soldiers who do not feel pain and do not feel the fear of death, using vaccines that suppress the production of adrenaline and the sensitivity of nerve receptors. In addition to these medical procedures, serious training sessions were also held in the camp.

Most of all, I remember the relentless tournament between children at the end of each year.

After dividing all participants into pairs, the first stage of the tournament began-a fight without rules for 1 minute. After that, the judge chose the winner, who goes to the second round, which lasts 2 minutes. This continued until the final, where the fight was not limited in time.

The winner of this tournament could ask the judge for one item, which will be delivered as soon as possible. Therefore, the last fight was always the most brutal competition.

Our person of course wins, and as a reward asks for his mother's ring, left as a keepsake.

So, the story, following the ring, begins to tell about the father of this guy who, after a year with the sale of his son, met a doctor who agreed to help him with a problem that is destroying him. As a result, this man was able to get rid of his physical addiction to drugs and decides to find and return his child.

Then the main part of the feed began, showing the parent's attempts to stop the experiment. Noticing the inaction of the police, he directly appeals to the government, but in the end, gets behind bars for possession of imported drugs that were planted on him.

And our story, again continuing the path behind the ring, returns to a young man of 19 years, who becomes a member of a special squad consisting of 15 people. Their goal is to protect all the sponsors of the experiment, during the war for the territory rich in wood and liquid fuel. Participating in the second stage of the experience. The meaning of which is the natural breeding of ideal soldiers by “crossing” the participants of the first experiment.

Thus, 4 years pass, during which the guy builds a family life, raises a daughter. The war is ending, and here you can finish the movie.

So then we were shown the last episode, where the father, after escaping from prison, finds the person who put him in prison (ordering him to plant drugs) and kills him.

And who was responsible for the safety of this person? Of course the main character!

Because of this, he and five other special squad members go in search of the killer in order to destroy the criminal.

Then the long-awaited reunion of father and son, after that I stopped holding back tears that flowed not from joy for the characters, but from resentment and bitterness.

The main character managed to utter only: “Father…”, – before the destruction of this killer by another member of the squad.

End of the movie.

And you know, diary, I don't want to comment on this work, and I don't want to remember its existence either. I just have one question for the screenwriter: “Why do you make me feel angry and hate the government and people?” – After what I saw, I seemed to fall out of reality for a while, so I don't remember what we had for dinner or whether we ate at all. When I woke up, I was sitting in a taxi on my way home.

Rowley will be here by 21: 00, so I'll still have time to make chocolate-covered strawberries. Today I took only the prescribed dose so everything should be fine.

03: 26. I decided to talk to Rowley about the operation to remove memories, and we had a heated discussion. On the one hand, these memories are hurting my life, but they have affected my character, making me who I am. On the other hand, there are people close to me who are ready to support any decision I make. After talking to Rowley, I decided that Catsu and I would re-pass the compatibility test, because the system rarely gives this opportunity to couples whose result was less than 80%. Now that I've put my thoughts on the right shelves, I can sleep in peace.

Bye, Diary.

Day 34.

Hello, Diary.

Today is July 22, 2073, Saturday.

On the street +25, Sunny.

08:41. Rowley had recently left and said that she would drop by later that evening when Mary returned for an interview. Now I'm alone again, and to avoid boredom, I'll go into the woods. From the trip, you need to bring not only photos with Dorobo, but also with other animals and beautiful landscapes.

12:13. Time passes quickly when you spend it doing something you love. I came across a small clearing with flowers and took a picture to show Lavender and Lilia. We haven't seen each other for a week, and I have so many things to discuss that we won't even have a day. I miss them.

We, of course, communicate every day in the blog and call often, but this can not be compared to live communication, when you see the emotions and feelings of the interlocutor.

By the way, Lava went with Hakon to the annual conference yesterday, so that designers could guess the most likely art trends of the next season. My profession is also related to this area, so I will wait for the results. They are usually announced in a month, but I will be able to receive them immediately after the conference. I hope Lavender is enjoying this trip.

14:52. Finally, the family is back together, and I won't be alone in a two-story house in the middle of the woods. When I was here alone, there was a desire to come to my modest, but native apartment in the city. But if close people are around, I feel comfortable in any place; boredom disappears under the pressure of a friendly atmosphere and jokes.

16: 14. As planned, Rowley stopped by and I noticed that she was getting more serious while working. Now the world will know exactly Becky's story.

18:33. While Mary and I were wandering around the house looking for matches for the barbecue; we found a small closet that had everything you could think of. Vinyl records, movie discs, soccer balls (and more), tennis rackets, skates, even trombone and horn. But we focused on the guitar, and I'm sure we had one thought: “Damon can play the guitar!”

Therefore, the usual cooking on the grill turned into an evening by the fire with live music. Another memory in the piggy Bank.

20:51. This house really has everything. While we were looking for a DVD player, we came across a monopoly. And this game delayed us for 2 hours. Nora went bankrupt first, then her daughter dropped out, and Damon and I had an intellectual war. In which, I made a small mistake, the consequences of this accident were irreparable, and I lost. We didn't decide on the second batch, so we went to the hot spring to wait for the sunset and then go to bed. But I plan to enjoy the starry sky tonight, because I won't get the chance tomorrow.

01:57. We lit scented candles near the spring, and if you add to this the sunset and the evening coolness, it makes a perfect end to our journey. But I will definitely come back here with Catsu, because I will not survive without Dorobo.

Now everyone is going to bed, I found a book in the closet that doesn't even have a cover, and I want to read it.

05:49. This is a fantastic story about a world inside a closet where a war has unfolded, involving griffins, centaurs, and other magical creatures.

The author described the actions and thoughts of characters of different ages, which made it possible to better understand the story. Also, while reading, I did not let go of the idea that this is one big fiction invented by the collective mind of children.

Overall, I liked the book. So when I get back, I will definitely go around the libraries and look for something similar.

That's it, it's time to prepare Breakfast and pack your things.

See you later, Diary.

Day 35.

Hello, Diary.

Today is July 23, 2073, Sunday.

On the street +26, cloudy.

08:52. Things are collected, the dust is wiped, Breakfast is eaten, it remains to say goodbye to Dorobo and go to the station. I need to warn Catsu about this, because I have some good news for Him.

10:21. Sitting on the train, I remembered old movies in which such trips were accompanied by the monotonous clatter of wheels on the junction between the rails. I would like to hear this sound not from the speaker, but in reality. There's got to be an old rails and trains, and I am sure you will find them. Remaining 10 minutes before our arrival in the city, we need to think through the dialogue with Catsu.

12:47. Catsu suggested doing a compatibility test so that tomorrow morning would be time to prepare for Sammy's birthday. This news was unexpected for me, but it would be strange to expect anything else from a logic teacher.

The test will take place at 15: 00, until then I need to. We definitely won't get a third chance, so if I really want to be with Catsu (and I do), then I need to do my best.

I don't think I'll tell anyone about the test, and if the system approves our marriage, we'll announce it tomorrow, otherwise I'll just go on with my life, because life doesn't just depend on Catsu.

13: 31. The closer the test, the less confidence in your decision. I need to get my mind off it somehow, or I'll go crazy before I get my blocked memories back. I'll take a walk through the libraries.

14:43. I'm late for such an important event, it's annoying. I hope Catsu didn't think I'd tricked him into running away.

Wish us luck, diary. Everything will be all right.

Day 36.

Good morning, Diary.

Today is Monday, July 24, 2073.

07:02. * Change password 063073 to 072573. *

I think now I will change my password every day, because I can be near a loved one for an unlimited amount of time.

Yesterday, we passed a 93% compatibility test and got married. After that, Catsu suggested that we seal our Union with wedding rings (this is an old tradition that means endless love for each other), and I agreed. Then he invited me to a restaurant, where we had a delicious dinner. But the most interesting thing happened in the evening. My beloved said that he had prepared another surprise for me, and I got back in the car.

The road passed unnoticed as we discussed further plans to move and the announcement of our marriage.

For us, a new stage of life has begun, which we will go through together. I feel like I can enjoy every day without having to think about past mistakes and failures. I am filled with a desire to act; I want to visit all corners of this world, try all kinds of extreme recreation, get a flying squirrel and live, sharing my joy with others. Perhaps in the future we will become parents and raise another person. Catsu took me to the waterfall Dei lacrimas, which I had long wanted to visit.

The sun gradually sank below the horizon, and the rainbow next to the waterfall became lighter – on such a beautiful background, we took the first photo for the album of the couple. I'm glad I met him at the hospital. Perhaps if it weren't for my dreams and hallucinations about that man, we would never have met.

Thank you, the man who broke me, but gave me the opportunity to love and be loved. I hope my memories of you don't come back, and I'll never meet you again. When the sun went down, it was cool outside, and we decided to go to our house.

Now we will live in a two-story apartment with large panoramic Windows, a balcony that can accommodate a dining table and a couple of armchairs. A library that I can fill with my favorite books, and a huge bathroom. There's even a private room for the Girl who lived with Catsu during my absence from the city. After a late supper, we went to bed.

I think every morning in this house will be perfect now. Waking up in a warm embrace, Breakfast prepared by her husband, a joint trip to work, parting at 9 o'clock, an evening date, dinner and sleep – this is every day after August 1.

I still find it hard to believe in the reality of what is happening. Maybe this is just a dream that I definitely don't want to Wake up from. It's time for Breakfast, and then to accompany hubby to work.

09:12. I'm going to go back to my apartment and pack my things. I also need to prepare a gift for Sammy.

14:53. Why do I have so many things in my house? I'll have to take extra boxes, because nothing else will fit in my suitcases.

15:23. Catsu doesn't have many classes this month, so he can leave work after sending the report.

We'll move all the boxes. I'll be sorting them out tomorrow, because Sammy's birthday starts in an hour.

16:12. Apparently, the ability to be constantly late is contagious. Catsu and I were choosing a pair image to announce our relationship from the doorstep. I am happy with the result, so a little delay will not spoil anything. Anyway, the birthday boy invited us half an hour earlier, because he knows me very well. Although I wanted to come earlier to meet Annie, the Muse of my named brother.

17:05. Annie is a very pleasant girl, able to maintain a dialogue on any topic, moderately modest. That's all I realized in the half hour we met. She and Sammy have similar tastes and interests.

Now we are preparing for a home concert, installing equipment and dining tables. I'll help in the kitchen.

I like this turmoil, people I know are gathered here, and we work together to create an unforgettable holiday, so there is a pleasant atmosphere of mutual assistance everywhere. But stop slacking off; it's time to join the team.

17:46. Gradually, more and more guests come. Sammy was able to unite people with different views, tastes, preferences, specialties and characters. They are all different and interesting in their own way. I am glad that interesting people who put a part of themselves into him surround him.

The concert starts at 18: 00.

At school, we had a group task on visualizing thoughts, the goal of which was to create a visual image of a dream. Therefore, we had a pleasant conversation, where each participant of our company told about their dreams. And my brother said: “I want to create a rock band, and at every concert to perform in the same leather jackets” – so I decided to fulfill his dream, but I thought it would be boring if you give ordinary jackets, so on the back of each leather wrote the name and the name of the band member.

17:53. I asked the person responsible for the celebration to open the gift in the dressing room, so I can only find out his reaction when he comes on stage, and now I need to take a comfortable seat.

18:46. Before the concert started, Sammy and his entire team thanked Catsu and me for the gift and congratulated us on our marriage, which was nice of them. The Banquet begins these evening promises to be hot.

19:06. Why is He here? Had He come to town, or was I hallucinating again? I thought He was gone forever. We need to get out of here. I have a terrible headache. He left me. How could his conscience allow him to just come here? I want to throw myself into His arms right now and tell him how much I missed him. What is this terrible desire? He's coming toward me. I want to run somewhere. Dino can't see me. Understand nothing.

23:32. We left the Banquet and walked around the city. Dino talked about his studies at the EOPQ, about new acquaintances. He was worried about me, and he regretted leaving me in the Park that day without really explaining anything. Dino thought it would be better if I forgot Him and started a normal life. He also said that he knew I was following Him, and he liked it. He graduated from the EOPQ in June, and when he returned home, he wanted to meet me, but when he found out where I was, he decided to just pass the bouquet. After each sentence, Dino apologized and said that I was dear to him. Why do the most expensive people cause us the most pain? What should I do? Why did this happen now? Everything was just getting better. I feel bad, bad from my thoughts.

00:17. I hate to allow myself to doubt when I've already married Catsu and decided to live with Him. I have already found my happiness. But why do I feel so good about being needed by Dino? He missed me and worried about me. I'm confused.

Somebody helps me.

00:35. I don't want to go home, but Catsu will be worried and looking for me. Where can I hide from this reality? Where should I go?

Day 37.

Hello, Diary.

Today is July 26, 2073, Wednesday.

On the street +25, Sunny.

07:42. How did I end up in the hospital? Why can't I remember anything again? Dino and I went for a walk, talked for a long time, and then…

What happened next?

07: 51. There's some meaningless text in the diary. I need to talk to the doctor about this during my rounds. My whole body was numb, and I hadn't opened my eyes all day yesterday.

08:16. I hope the doctor will let me go home after the checkup, because Catsu is definitely worried about me. He's starting to lose weight again; he can't worry about it now.

08:32. Apparently, yesterday, the memory block stopped working due to shock, and I fell into a panic state and began to delirium. I can't explain the last entries in the diary any other way, but I still need to wait for the doctor before jumping to conclusions.

08:49. I went to the blog and found there the largest number of messages for all the time I used this app. Everyone was surprised by my abrupt disappearance from the holiday, some had already learned that I was in the hospital and wished me a speedy recovery. I wonder who called the ambulance or took me to the hospital. Maybe it was Dino. Yesterday, He said that he wrote to me on a blog for all these 5 years, despite being blocked. I'm interested in reading what Dino wanted to tell me, but I'm afraid if our conversation yesterday caused me to be in the hospital, then I definitely shouldn't read these messages.

Yesterday, Dino seemed sincere. Although, He was always so and bluntly expressed their thoughts, without thinking about the consequences. How can you be dependent on this person? I shouldn't bother my head with questions right now.

09:37. I had a conversation with the doctor. After evaluating the results of the brain scan, he said that the memory block would stop working during this week, so I would stay in the hospital. After that, we discussed the hallucinations of the previous week. The doctor suggested that the cause of their occurrence could be fatigue and strong emotions experienced while watching the film.

Then I asked if there was a way to slow down the memory block. To which the doctor replied: “The side effects of these procedures will bring a lot of discomfort, and the result may not be. Therefore, it will be better for you, Norma, to resume therapy with a psychologist, and after the blockage disappears, go to a hospital for a year, where you will receive constant medical care. There you will be able to accept and then let go of your addiction to Dino” – the thought that I will not be able to be with my husband for a whole year made me sad, and I remembered the removal of memories.

“The choice is yours,” was all I heard in response. I was again given a week to think about the question on which my future depends. It's excruciating. I just want to go home, go to work in August, and live a normal life. Is this wish impossible? I need to talk to Catsu.

10:16. He'll come and see me after dinner, and we'll talk it over. Catsu will also bring some hospital supplies from home, even though I don't want to stay here even for a week. Until then, I'll have to amuse myself with what's in my head. Can contradict the diary?

12:46. I went around the hospital grounds for the third time, studied all the drawings on the walls, and I have no more ideas what to do.

15:58. Dino's here. I didn't want to see or talk to Him. But my resistance was useless, and I went out with Him for a walk. In the end, we started talking, and He asked me about how I had lived without Him, whether I had started following someone else. This sudden jealousy and questioning surprised me. I didn't think that Dino was so possessive, because he hadn't shown me such attention before. Apparently, I was married to Catsu, I shattered His pride. Because He thought, he could manipulate me out of addiction. But my memory was blocked, and I was able to look at the world around me. This time I had the strength to say it to His face. How could I even admire Him? He left me without explaining anything. And after 4 years, he says that I am dear to Him, and he wants to start all over again.

“I can't feel bad because of a hypocrite who played with my feelings” – just because of this thought, I ignored his shortcomings. Because I can only admire the “ideal” person, and if there is no such person, then you can always create it in your imagination and put this mask on the real person.

I will not betray a loved one who is much dearer to me. He calmed me down during panic attacks, took care of me when I didn't even want to get out of bed. And Catsu did this without demanding reciprocity, patiently waiting for my “awakening”. I will no longer doubt my feelings for him. I need to talk to him and tell him everything.

18:28. He doesn't answer my calls or read my blog posts. Nothing happened to him, did it? He was simply detained at work, or invited to drink in honor of some holiday. That's all right. I can't worry. Definitely not now. Distraction, you need distraction. Where are the books?

18: 34. That's all right. I'll just get a nurse to help me.

18:43. Please hurry. Somebody helps me!

20:36. It happened again. The nurse gave me a sedative and I fell asleep. After I woke up, she said that I was lying motionless, and did not answer her questions. So the nurse became concerned and looked into my eyes (which were open) and realized that I had shock paralysis. It is now clear why my attempts to call for help were useless. I'm glad she started her rounds early, and my ordeal ended a little earlier.

After what happened, I can't imagine what will happen to me when the memory block completely disappears. We're supposed to have dinner now, and then I'll try to call the prodigal husband again and go to bed.

Good night, Diary.

* Note: *

– 21:23. Catsu called me many times while I was in a state of shock.

When I called him back, he spent half an hour explaining to me why he didn't come and didn't answer the phone. He repeated the same thing 10 times, as if he was afraid I wouldn't believe him. But if he implanted a chip to access the Internet with his thoughts, like I did, he could write me a blog. But I'm glad Catsu's okay anyway, and he just lost his phone. —

Day 38.

Hello, Diary.

Today is July 27, 2073, Thursday.

On the street +26, windy.

10:48. I haven't called my parents in a long time and I feel guilty about it, so I have to talk to them now and tell them everything.

11: 56. My Mother decided to take a free week to fly home. My parents always help me, and I even forget to call and ask about their health and mood.

Now I need to discuss everything with my doctor, because I don't want to feel fear for my life again, and afterrecovering my memories, absolutely anything can happen, and I have no desire to experience it.

12:32. The doctor was surprised at my acceptance of the operation, and said that, in my case, this is the most logical choice. Therefore, the doctor is ready to conduct it tomorrow.

You need to tell your hubby about this, he will definitely not go to the holiday to a colleague. Now I want to talk to my sister and the Mayor.

14:56. It's nice to hear, “We'll be there for you anyway,” which is reassuring and reassuring.

20:44. Catsu came to see me, as promised.

After telling him everything, I asked if he was ready to marry another girl tomorrow, because after the operation, Norma Mads, with whom He had married, would change. He did not answer this question until the end of our walk. Apparently, he needed time to make his choice. And Catsu replied, “Norma, if you think that after this operation, you will stop suffering from dreams and hallucinations, and then I support your decision. But if you stop loving me after that, I'll let you go, I promise.” Now I have no doubt.

Tomorrow will be a difficult day, so after dinner I will go straight to bed.

See you tomorrow, Diary.

Day 39.

Hello, Diary.

Today is Friday, July 28, 2073.

On the street +24, cloudy.

10:42. My parents arrived early in the morning without even having Breakfast, so I sent them to the nearest cafe, there is still a lot of time until 13:20.

Catsu came to see Nuna, and Ruby, me, too, and Nick promised to visit me tonight. We were supposed to go to work together on Monday, but my rehabilitation will take at least 2 weeks.

12:36. Of course, I understand that you can't eat before the operation, but you can't deprive me of Breakfast and lunch because of this. I've been complaining to Catsu for half an hour about being bullied and starved by nurses. He scolds them theatrically and feels sorry for me, taking me in his warm embrace. After an hour, I will stop being myself, so I need to enjoy these moments with my loved ones.

12: 58. The closer the operation time, the more grateful I am to my family.

But I forgot all about you, diary. You were there for me, even during those difficult years, which in half an hour I will forget forever. You have been my friend and listened to me, fulfilled all my requests and kept every word in your memory, constantly reminding me of the date, time and weather. I'm saying thank you for being there for me. But I want to remove you along with the bad memories and start a new life.

Goodbye, Diary.

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From the author:

Dear reader,

I thank you for giving this story your time. How Norma's life is going to work out is now up to your imagination, but I can tell you a little more about Catsu in “Set a Diary”.

I want to say thanks to my friends and family who support me. Without you, this story never saw the light, but remained in my imagination, like hundreds of others.

See you soon.

Maigo.

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